Tag: I want to heal myself

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Healing has so many facets…

There is the physical healing…

The emotional…

The spiritual…

The professional…

The list can go on for a while…

But I found that the biggest and most important element and deciding factor is only one

WANTING TO BE HEALED…

All the time I treated my health as third or fourth priority, I got what I put in…

Sickness in my body…

All the time I ignored my emotional health, I got what I put in…

Despair, anger, resentment, feeling lost and victimized

All the time I followed what I thought it was expected of me, my professional life was a constantly race in a stupid threadmill…

With 0 fulfillment…

It took me so much courage to wanting to heal…

Because when I made that decision there were 2 things I had to admit….

First one was that I had been doing A LOT of things wrong…

When I say a lot I mean ALMOST EVERYTHING…

Trying being a “perfectionist”, “type A” personality needing to do that…

The second thing I had to admit was that I couldn’t do it all my own…

Even though I had done life on my own for my whole life…

Or at least I felt like it…

These days I am so passionate about what I went through, that sharing what I learned with my clients is my biggest and deepest passion…

When it comes to explaining to people what feeling healed means…

I feel sometimes it is hard to explain…

I lived so long in disharmony with my body and my self that feeling healed means

EVERYTHING…

Feeling healed means to have a delicious relationship with my body

Feeling healed means being able to catch myself up and being honest with myself when I need to

Feeling healed means having a close relationship with my inner voice, so close that sometimes I have to laugh at it:

Jeez, are you going to go crazy again?

Feeling healed means loving myself A LOT, the ugly and the beautiful for all I have been and for all that I am…

Nothing and nobody will ever take this feeling away from me…

Because feeling healed makes me want to cultivate that feeling everyday…

So yes I don’t take it for granted…

I still cultivate that feeling every single day…

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𝗬𝗢𝗨 𝗖𝗔𝗡’𝗧 𝗢𝗨𝗧𝗦𝗢𝗨𝗥𝗖𝗘 𝗛𝗘𝗔𝗟𝗜𝗡𝗚

Don’t want to hear that huh?

𝙃𝙚𝙖𝙡𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙞𝙨 𝙙𝙤𝙣𝙚 𝙗𝙮 𝙔𝙊𝙐 𝙊𝙉𝙇𝙔…

There are definitely complementary things you can do to support health…

But expecting people to do the work for you is only an ILLUSION…

You might think it is a “rich statement” coming from someone who has had 12 sessions of chemo right?

Well the 12 sessions of chemo did its own job indeed and I am grateful for that…

𝘽𝙪𝙩 𝙞𝙛 𝙄 𝙝𝙖𝙙 𝙟𝙪𝙨𝙩 𝙙𝙤𝙣𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙬𝙝𝙚𝙧𝙚 𝙬𝙤𝙪𝙡𝙙 𝙄 𝙗𝙚 𝙣𝙤𝙬??

𝘿𝙚𝙛𝙞𝙣𝙞𝙩𝙚𝙡𝙮 𝙣𝙤𝙩 𝙖𝙩 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙗𝙚𝙨𝙩 𝙨𝙝𝙖𝙥𝙚 𝙤𝙛 𝙢𝙮 𝙡𝙞𝙛𝙚…

𝙋𝙝𝙮𝙨𝙞𝙘𝙖𝙡𝙡𝙮 𝙤𝙧 𝙚𝙢𝙤𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙖𝙡𝙡𝙮…

The work I did during 7.5 months day in day out couldn’t have been outsourced…

Spending 7.5 months by myself in self quarantine allowed myself to do internal work I needed to do.

These days I believe in all possibilities because I saw what my body went through and what it was capable for…

I felt how emotionally numb and lost I was and how I was able to change my internal world…

People ask me all the time:

𝙒𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙬𝙖𝙨 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙤𝙣𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙙𝙞𝙙?

Answer: there wasn’t one thing. There were many things and the relentless determined action I took every single day.

𝙃𝙤𝙬 𝙙𝙞𝙙 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙙𝙤 𝙞𝙩?

I stopped searching for outside answers and spent time getting to know who I was.

I started owing and showing up to who I was.

No more hiding…

No more lies…

𝗛𝗼𝘄 𝗱𝗶𝗱 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗯𝘂𝗶𝗹𝗱 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗰𝗲𝗿𝘁𝗮𝗶𝗻𝘁𝘆 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗹𝗲𝘁 𝗴𝗼 𝗼𝗳 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗳𝗲𝗮𝗿 𝗶𝗻 𝘀𝘂𝗰𝗵 𝗮 𝗰𝗿𝗶𝘀𝗶𝘀?

I build my certainty each day I was prepared to take action towards creating a new body, mind and soul.

I had plenty of excuses to not do it but I dragged myself to do it when I was sick and scared for my life at the beginning.

𝙏𝙝𝙚 𝙢𝙤𝙧𝙚 𝙄 𝙨𝙝𝙤𝙬𝙚𝙙 𝙪𝙥 𝙩𝙤 𝙢𝙮𝙨𝙚𝙡𝙛…

𝙏𝙝𝙚 𝙢𝙤𝙧𝙚 𝙧𝙚𝙨𝙪𝙡𝙩𝙨 𝙄 𝙜𝙤𝙩…

𝙏𝙝𝙚 𝙢𝙤𝙧𝙚 𝙧𝙚𝙨𝙪𝙡𝙩𝙨 𝙄 𝙜𝙤𝙩, 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙗𝙚𝙩𝙩𝙚𝙧 𝙄 𝙛𝙚𝙡𝙩…

𝙏𝙝𝙚 𝙢𝙤𝙧𝙚 𝙘𝙚𝙧𝙩𝙖𝙞𝙣𝙩𝙮 𝙄 𝙗𝙪𝙞𝙡𝙙…

𝙏𝙝𝙚 𝙡𝙚𝙨𝙨 𝙩𝙞𝙢𝙚 𝙄 𝙡𝙞𝙫𝙚𝙙 𝙞𝙣 𝙛𝙚𝙖𝙧…

𝙄𝙩 𝙞𝙨 𝙖 𝙥𝙧𝙖𝙘𝙩𝙞𝙘𝙚𝘼 𝙙𝙖𝙞𝙡𝙮 𝙥𝙧𝙖𝙘𝙩𝙞𝙘𝙚…

If you are in a situation where you feel:

Lost and fearful

Unhappy and unfulfilled

Physically and emotionally uncomfortable

It doesn’t have to be about a diagnosis only…

𝗟𝗶𝗳𝗲 𝗽𝗿𝗲𝘀𝗲𝗻𝘁𝘀 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝘀𝗶𝘁𝘂𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻𝘀 𝗮𝗹𝗹 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘁𝗶𝗺𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗺𝗮𝗸𝗲𝘀 𝘂𝘀 𝗳𝗲𝗲𝗹 𝗹𝗼𝘀𝘁, 𝘂𝗻𝗵𝗮𝗽𝗽𝘆, 𝗽𝗵𝘆𝘀𝗶𝗰𝗮𝗹𝗹𝘆 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗲𝗺𝗼𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻𝗮𝗹𝗹𝘆 𝘂𝗻𝗰𝗼𝗺𝗳𝗼𝗿𝘁𝗮𝗯𝗹𝗲…

𝗪𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗺𝗮𝘁𝘁𝗲𝗿𝘀 𝗶𝘀 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗮𝘁𝘁𝗶𝘁𝘂𝗱𝗲 𝘁𝗼𝘄𝗮𝗿𝗱𝘀 𝗶𝘁…

𝗛𝗼𝘄 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗰𝘁 𝘁𝗼 𝗶𝘁…

𝗧𝗵𝗲 𝗾𝘂𝗲𝘀𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻𝘀 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗻𝗲𝗲𝗱 𝘁𝗼 𝗮𝘀𝗸 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿𝘀𝗲𝗹𝗳 𝗶𝘀:𝗪𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗽𝗿𝗲𝗽𝗮𝗿𝗲𝗱 𝘁𝗼 𝗱𝗼 𝘁𝗼 𝗰𝗵𝗮𝗻𝗴𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝘀𝗶𝘁𝘂𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻?

𝗠𝘆 𝗮𝗻𝘀𝘄𝗲𝗿 𝘄𝗮𝘀 𝗘.𝗩.𝗘.𝗥.𝗬.𝗧.𝗛.𝗜.𝗡.𝗚

𝗘𝘃𝗲𝗿𝘆 𝗱𝗮𝘆 𝗱𝗮𝘆 𝗶𝗻 𝗱𝗮𝘆 𝗼𝘂𝘁

𝗪𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗮𝗯𝗼𝘂𝘁 𝘆𝗼𝘂?

𝙋𝙎: 𝙄𝙛 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙣𝙖 𝙩𝙤 𝙗𝙚 𝙜𝙪𝙞𝙙𝙚𝙙 𝙗𝙮 𝙨𝙤𝙢𝙚𝙤𝙣𝙚 𝙬𝙝𝙤 𝙝𝙖𝙨 𝙩𝙖𝙠𝙚𝙣 𝙛𝙪𝙡𝙡 𝙧𝙚𝙨𝙥𝙤𝙣𝙨𝙞𝙗𝙞𝙡𝙞𝙩𝙮 𝙤𝙛 𝙝𝙚𝙧 𝙤𝙬𝙣 𝙝𝙚𝙖𝙡𝙞𝙣𝙜

You know where I am 🙂

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Take charge of your health

I thought I could do it all…

I thought I knew it all…

I thought I was a good person…

I thought I was an honest person…

I thought I had it all together…

Don’t get me wrong…

I still think I am a good person…

And I am honest too…

But that doesn’t mean that I was immune to cancer…

We don’t automatically get better health because we hold ourselves to the highest standards as a decent human being…

Having it all under control – meaning good packed lunches, dinner organized, clothes washed, half organized house doesn’t guarantee you good health either….

And doing it all is probably the last thing that guarantees you good health…

Because we can’t do it all…

Have you chatted with someone who you thought had it altogether and realized that they didn’t after all?

We are all humans…

We make mistakes…

Sometimes we learn from it…

And when we don’t…

Life presents us with the same challenge in a different form…

until we learn it for real…

But this is a story for another email….

When the doctor confirmed I had Stage 3 Bowel Cancer, I thought to myself:

I worked so hard to be a good person. Why me?

I have kids….

As I started getting the courage to put my hand up and say:

I don’t know it all…

I can’t do it all…

I am a good person but there are a few things I need to work on…

I am honest but I haven’t been honest to myself…🤦

Things started changing…

Being honesty to ourselves is one of he hardest things we can do…

It is so much easier to hide ourselves in statements that protect us from changing…

When I started to share my story, to help people like the old version of myself…

I realized that the biggest issue was not in the doing but the thinking…

All the time people think they know it all…

they have tried everything…

and nothing works…

and they say to themselves I don’t have time or money to invest on myself…

and they say to themselves nothing is going to change…

Guess what?

Nothing ever changes…

and people get the same results…

But when you are honest to yourself…

things change…

You change….

You become the change…

Don’t make the same mistake as I did…

Don’t hide away from your truth…

Don’t hide away from what you can’t accomplish by yourself…

Don’t hide away from what you need to work on…

Don’t hide away from asking for help…

Be brave…

Show up to yourself…

Be real…

and watch the transformation happens…

The only thing that can promise good health is being honest with yourself…

It is working on yourself daily…

It is being true to yourself…

No magical pills…

Just a daily practice…

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What you can do to maintain your health

Today I had to go to the hospital…

To have a blood test as next week I am going to see my oncologist…

When I got to hospital, it is hard for me not to remember where I have been…

As I see people showing their sickness in the way they walk, how their facial expressions are…

I see a lot of pain…

Physical and emotional….

Today I felt so deeply inside me a strong desire to continue to do whatever I can each day not to get there again…

Reality is we are all going to die of something even though we try to ignore the subject and the reality of it all….

But it is not about dying…

The choices we make each day is about how we are going to live each day….

How can we change our future but making different choices now…

How can we treat our bodies now…How can we look after our minds….

How can we look heal our souls….

The more I dig into my studies, working with clients and the fascinating world of how our bodies and minds work…

I come back to the same conclusion….

We are the only ones who can change our future…

We are the only ones who can make different choices….

We are the only ones who can start treating our bodies differently…

We are the only ones who can change our habits…We are the only ones who can change our thoughts…

Nobody else can do this work for us….

Only us….only us….