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I want more energy…

People tell me all the time…I need more energy

๐Ÿฎ.๐Ÿฑ ๐˜†๐—ฒ๐—ฎ๐—ฟ๐˜€ ๐—ฎ๐—ด๐—ผ ๐—œ ๐˜„๐—ฎ๐˜€

Exhausted

Angry with the world

Unfulfilled

Unhappy

Physical sickIn the last 2.5 years, I have

Changed all my physical habits

Healed my emotional self

Left my corporate job

Started my business

Became a yoga teacher

Completed a Quantum Health Certification

Completed many other business courses

Have helped people all around the world to take charge of their health and lives

๐™ƒ๐™ค๐™ฌ ๐™™๐™ž๐™™ ๐™„ ๐™™๐™ค ๐™ฉ๐™๐™–๐™ฉ?

Before I started tackling all my problems, I put all my energy to creating a new body despite going through chemotherapy.

I changed all my physical habits to build strength and a healthy body.

I have been able to accomplished all of these goals because I have one simple thing:

๐—ฃ๐—›๐—ฌ๐—ฆ๐—œ๐—–๐—”๐—Ÿ ๐—˜๐—ก๐—˜๐—ฅ๐—š๐—ฌ

๐™’๐™ž๐™ฉ๐™ ๐™ฅ๐™๐™ฎ๐™จ๐™ž๐™˜๐™–๐™ก ๐™š๐™ฃ๐™š๐™ง๐™œ๐™ฎ ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช ๐™˜๐™–๐™ฃ ๐™ฉ๐™–๐™˜๐™ ๐™ก๐™š ๐™˜๐™๐™–๐™ก๐™ก๐™š๐™ฃ๐™œ๐™š๐™จ ๐™–๐™ฃ๐™™ ๐™ค๐™—๐™จ๐™ฉ๐™–๐™˜๐™ก๐™š๐™จโ€ฆ

๐™’๐™ž๐™ฉ๐™ ๐™ฅ๐™๐™ฎ๐™จ๐™ž๐™˜๐™–๐™ก ๐™จ๐™ฉ๐™ง๐™š๐™ฃ๐™œ๐™ฉ๐™ ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช ๐™˜๐™–๐™ฃ ๐™˜๐™๐™–๐™ฃ๐™œ๐™š ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช๐™ง ๐™๐™–๐™—๐™ž๐™ฉ๐™จ

๐™’๐™ž๐™ฉ๐™ ๐™ฅ๐™๐™ฎ๐™จ๐™ž๐™˜๐™–๐™ก ๐™š๐™ฃ๐™™๐™ช๐™ง๐™–๐™ฃ๐™˜๐™š ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช ๐™˜๐™–๐™ฃ ๐™˜๐™ค๐™ฃ๐™จ๐™ž๐™จ๐™ฉ๐™š๐™ฃ๐™ฉ๐™ก๐™ฎ ๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™ซ๐™š๐™จ๐™ฉ ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช๐™ง๐™จ๐™š๐™ก๐™› ๐™™๐™–๐™ฎ ๐™ž๐™ฃ ๐™™๐™–๐™ฎ ๐™ค๐™ช๐™ฉ ๐™ฉ๐™ค ๐™–๐™˜๐™๐™ž๐™š๐™ซ๐™š ๐™–๐™ฃ๐™ฎ๐™ฉ๐™๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™œ ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช ๐™ฌ๐™–๐™ฃ๐™ฉโ€ฆ..

๐™’๐™ž๐™ฉ๐™ ๐™ฅ๐™๐™ฎ๐™จ๐™ž๐™˜๐™–๐™ก ๐™š๐™ฃ๐™š๐™ง๐™œ๐™ฎ ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช ๐™˜๐™–๐™ฃ ๐™จ๐™ข๐™–๐™จ๐™ ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช๐™ง ๐™œ๐™ค๐™–๐™ก๐™จ

๐—ช๐—œ๐—ง๐—›๐—ข๐—จ๐—ง ๐—˜๐—ก๐—˜๐—ฅ๐—š๐—ฌ, ๐—ฌ๐—ข๐—จ ๐—–๐—”๐—กโ€™๐—ง.

๐—œ๐—ณ ๐˜†๐—ผ๐˜‚ ๐—ฎ๐—ฟ๐—ฒ ๐—ฎ๐—ป ๐—ฒ๐—ป๐˜๐—ฟ๐—ฒ๐—ฝ๐—ฟ๐—ฒ๐—ป๐—ฒ๐˜‚๐—ฟ ๐—ฎ๐—ป๐—ฑ ๐˜†๐—ผ๐˜‚ ๐—ณ๐—ฒ๐—ฒ๐—น

๐—ฒ๐˜…๐—ต๐—ฎ๐˜‚๐˜€๐˜๐—ฒ๐—ฑ ๐—ฒ๐˜ƒ๐—ฒ๐—ฟ๐˜†๐—ฑ๐—ฎ๐˜†โ€ฆ

๐—น๐—ถ๐—ธ๐—ฒ ๐˜†๐—ผ๐˜‚ ๐—ฎ๐—ฟ๐—ฒ ๐—ฑ๐—ฟ๐—ฎ๐—ด๐—ด๐—ถ๐—ป๐—ด ๐˜†๐—ผ๐˜‚๐—ฟ๐˜€๐—ฒ๐—น๐—ณ ๐˜๐—ต๐—ฟ๐—ผ๐˜‚๐—ด๐—ต ๐—น๐—ถ๐—ณ๐—ฒโ€ฆ.

๐—•๐˜‚๐˜ ๐˜†๐—ผ๐˜‚ ๐˜„๐—ฎ๐—ป๐˜ ๐˜๐—ผ ๐—ฐ๐—ต๐—ฎ๐—ป๐—ด๐—ฒ ๐˜†๐—ผ๐˜‚๐—ฟ ๐—ต๐—ฎ๐—ฏ๐—ถ๐˜๐˜€ ๐—ฏ๐˜‚๐˜ ๐—ต๐—ฎ๐˜ƒ๐—ฒ๐—ปโ€™๐˜ ๐—ฏ๐—ฒ๐—ฒ๐—ป ๐—ฎ๐—ฏ๐—น๐—ฒ ๐˜๐—ผโ€ฆ

๐—๐—ผ๐—ถ๐—ป ๐—บ๐—ฒ ๐—ผ๐—ป ๐—บ๐˜† ๐—ณ๐—ฟ๐—ฒ๐—ฒ ๐—™๐—• ๐—ด๐—ฟ๐—ผ๐˜‚๐—ฝ ๐˜„๐—ต๐—ฒ๐—ฟ๐—ฒ ๐—œ ๐˜„๐—ถ๐—น๐—น ๐˜๐—ฒ๐—ฎ๐—ฐ๐—ต ๐—ต๐—ผ๐˜„ ๐˜†๐—ผ๐˜‚ ๐—ฐ๐—ฎ๐—ป ๐—ฐ๐—ฟ๐—ฒ๐—ฎ๐˜๐—ฒ ๐—ฝ๐—ต๐˜†๐˜€๐—ถ๐—ฐ๐—ฎ๐—น ๐—ฒ๐—ป๐—ฒ๐—ฟ๐—ด๐˜† ๐—ฎ๐—ป๐—ฑ ๐˜€๐˜‚๐˜€๐˜๐—ฎ๐—ถ๐—ป ๐—ถ๐˜ ๐˜๐—ผ ๐—ฎ๐—ฐ๐—ต๐—ถ๐—ฒ๐˜ƒ๐—ฒ ๐˜†๐—ผ๐˜‚๐—ฟ ๐—ฏ๐˜‚๐˜€๐—ถ๐—ป๐—ฒ๐˜€๐˜€ ๐—ด๐—ผ๐—ฎ๐—น๐˜€.

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I was a screaming mum…

I come from a culture where screaming at your kids was totally ok so despite all my efforts of being a different parent than my parents were, the screaming became a patternโ€ฆ

When I embodied the old Angelica before cancer, I was:

A hot tempered mum

With a very short fuse

What I didnโ€™t realise was that my kids were getting the worst of meโ€ฆ

I was hurting them, my husband and myself

And the issues werenโ€™t theirs but mineโ€ฆ

But until I realised that, the way I was parenting my kids wasnโ€™t serving them or myselfโ€ฆ

I couldnโ€™t changeโ€ฆ.

๐˜๐˜ข๐˜ท๐˜ฆ ๐˜บ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ ๐˜ฆ๐˜ท๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ ๐˜ง๐˜ฆ๐˜ญ๐˜ต ๐˜จ๐˜ถ๐˜ช๐˜ญ๐˜ต๐˜บ ๐˜ข๐˜ฃ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜ต ๐˜ด๐˜ฉ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜ต๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ ๐˜ข๐˜ต ๐˜บ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜ณ ๐˜ฌ๐˜ช๐˜ฅ๐˜ด?

This is how I felt all the timeโ€ฆ

I couldnโ€™t get out of the loop of trying to be different and going back to behaving in the same way with them.

I was exhaustedโ€ฆ

And mostly I was living from a place of lackโ€ฆ

Lack of energy, lack of physical strength, lack of emotional balance, lack of emotional happinessโ€ฆ

๐™ƒ๐™ค๐™ฌ ๐™˜๐™ค๐™ช๐™ก๐™™ ๐™„ ๐™—๐™š๐™๐™–๐™ซ๐™š ๐™™๐™ž๐™›๐™›๐™š๐™ง๐™š๐™ฃ๐™ฉ ๐™›๐™ง๐™ค๐™ข ๐™ฉ๐™๐™–๐™ฉ ๐™ฅ๐™ก๐™–๐™˜๐™š?

Well, I just couldnโ€™tโ€ฆ

And that is clear to me now but it wasnโ€™t then.

๐™„ ๐™จ๐™ฉ๐™–๐™ง๐™ฉ๐™š๐™™ ๐™ฌ๐™ค๐™ง๐™ ๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™œ ๐™ค๐™ฃ ๐™ข๐™ฎ ๐™ฅ๐™๐™ฎ๐™จ๐™ž๐™˜๐™–๐™ก ๐™๐™š๐™–๐™ก๐™ฉ๐™ ๐™›๐™ค๐™ง ๐™จ๐™ช๐™ง๐™ซ๐™ž๐™ซ๐™–๐™ก ๐™ฅ๐™ช๐™ง๐™ฅ๐™ค๐™จ๐™š๐™จโ€ฆ.

Slowly I could see the shifts in my behavior as motherโ€ฆ

I had more patienceโ€ฆ

I had more mental strength to work out how I could changeโ€ฆ

I had more emotional balance to work out different strategies in how to deal with my kidsโ€ฆ

It took me some time to create a different relationship with my kidsโ€ฆ

It took me some time to rebuild a new relationship with themโ€ฆ

As I worked through my own issues that came from childhood, I started asking myself:

๐™’๐™๐™–๐™ฉ ๐™ฌ๐™ž๐™ก๐™ก ๐™ข๐™ฎ ๐™ ๐™ž๐™™๐™จ ๐™จ๐™–๐™ฎ ๐™–๐™—๐™ค๐™ช๐™ฉ ๐™ข๐™š ๐™ฌ๐™๐™š๐™ฃ ๐™ฉ๐™๐™š๐™ฎ ๐™–๐™ง๐™š ๐™จ๐™ž๐™ฉ๐™ฉ๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™œ ๐™–๐™ฉ ๐™– ๐—ฝ๐˜€๐˜†๐—ฐ๐—ต๐—ผ๐—น๐—ผ๐—ด๐˜†๐˜€๐˜โ€™๐˜€ ๐—ฑ๐—ฒ๐˜€๐—ธ?

Within that, I started working through a plan to become a different mum.

I am not claiming perfection here by any meansโ€ฆ

I am claiming acceptance and recognition within myself that once I was mum that behaved in a way that didnโ€™t serve her kidsโ€ฆ.

She decided to changed thatโ€ฆ

And she didโ€ฆ.