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๐˜พ๐™–๐™ฃ ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช ๐™ž๐™ข๐™–๐™œ๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™š ๐™ฌ๐™–๐™ ๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™œ ๐™ช๐™ฅ ๐™š๐™ซ๐™š๐™ง๐™ฎ ๐™™๐™–๐™ฎ ๐™›๐™š๐™š๐™ก๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™œ ๐™ก๐™ž๐™ ๐™š ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช ๐™–๐™ง๐™š 20 ๐™ฎ๐™š๐™–๐™ง๐™จ ๐™ค๐™ก๐™™ ๐™–๐™œ๐™–๐™ž๐™ฃ?

I am 43 years old

My body has gone through hell and back๐Ÿ˜ฌ

๐—•๐—จ๐—ง ๐—œ ๐—›๐—”๐—ฉ๐—˜ ๐— ๐—ข๐—ฅ๐—˜ ๐—˜๐—ก๐—˜๐—ฅ๐—š๐—ฌ ๐—ก๐—ข๐—ช ๐—ง๐—›๐—”๐—ก ๐—œ ๐—›๐—”๐—— ๐—ข๐—ก ๐— ๐—ฌ ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฌ๐—ฆ๐Ÿ™Œ

It has not always been like this

I abused my body for years

With alcohol, too much sugar and foods that fed inflammation day in day out

๐Ÿ’ฅAt 30 I had an ectopic pregnancy and almost died

๐Ÿ’ฅAt 31 I had a C-section

๐Ÿ’ฅAt 34 I had gestational diabetes

๐Ÿ’ฅAt 38 I had Stage 3 Bowel Cancer

๐Ÿ’ฅAn emergency surgery to cut the cancer out

๐Ÿ’ฅ12 sessions of chemotherapy

๐Ÿ’ฅA partial hysterectomy

My husband sometimes joke and asks me if I have anything left inside๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿ˜‚

๐˜ผ๐™ฉ 43 ๐™ฎ๐™š๐™–๐™ง๐™จ ๐™ค๐™ก๐™™ ๐™„ ๐™›๐™š๐™š๐™ก ๐™ฉ๐™๐™š ๐™๐™š๐™–๐™ก๐™ฉ๐™๐™ž๐™š๐™จ๐™ฉ ๐™–๐™ฃ๐™™ ๐™ฉ๐™๐™š ๐™›๐™ž๐™ฉ๐™ฉ๐™š๐™จ๐™ฉ ๐™„ ๐™๐™–๐™ซ๐™š ๐™—๐™š๐™š๐™ฃ ๐™ž๐™ฃ ๐™ข๐™ฎ ๐™ก๐™ž๐™›๐™š

When people ask me what I did

I say the truth

๐™„ ๐˜พ๐™ƒ๐˜ผ๐™‰๐™‚๐™€๐˜ฟ ๐™ˆ๐™” ๐™‹๐™ƒ๐™”๐™Ž๐™„๐˜พ๐˜ผ๐™‡ ๐˜ผ๐™‰๐˜ฟ ๐™€๐™ˆ๐™Š๐™๐™„๐™Š๐™‰๐˜ผ๐™‡ ๐™ƒ๐˜ผ๐˜ฝ๐™„๐™๐™Ž

Simple but not simple as otherwise the world would be health and it is not

We as a society have the worst health status in generations even with all the information and comfort we have created around us

๐—ฆ๐—ข๐— ๐—˜๐—ง๐—œ๐— ๐—˜๐—ฆ ๐—œ ๐—ช๐—ข๐—ก๐——๐—˜๐—ฅ

๐—›๐—ข๐—ช ๐——๐—œ๐—— ๐—œ ๐—ง๐—จ๐—ฅ๐—ก ๐— ๐—ฌ ๐—›๐—˜๐—”๐—ง๐—› ๐—”๐—ก๐—— ๐—Ÿ๐—œ๐—™๐—˜ ๐—”๐—ฅ๐—ข๐—จ๐—ก๐——?

โœจI stopped accepting aging as my excuse of feeling exhausted

โœจI stopped accepting being a working mum as my excuse of being tired all the time

โœจI never accepted the โ€œbeing sickโ€ person during cancer treatment or after it

โœจI always believed there was a lot I could do and I did it

No BSโ€ฆ

Just did it

and it workedโ€ฆ

I believe there is a lot we can do for our health

Not in the form of delegating it to someone or something else and attending treatments daily

or taking a ton of supplements

(I believe these are great and complementary but not the core of health)

๐—œ๐—ง ๐—œ๐—ฆ ๐—”๐—•๐—ข๐—จ๐—ง ๐—ง๐—”๐—ž๐—œ๐—ก๐—š ๐—™๐—จ๐—Ÿ๐—Ÿ ๐—ฅ๐—˜๐—ฆ๐—ฃ๐—ข๐—ก๐—ฆ๐—œ๐—•๐—œ๐—Ÿ๐—œ๐—ง๐—ฌ ๐—ข๐—™

๐—ช๐—›๐—”๐—ง ๐—ข๐—ก๐—˜ ๐—–๐—”๐—ก ๐——๐—ข

It is a courageous journey that requires a ton of commitment and willingness

Not for everyone I know

But if you feel that it is where you are atโ€ฆ






๐—ฆ๐—œ๐—š๐—ก ๐—จ๐—ฃ ๐—ง๐—ข๐——๐—”๐—ฌ ๐—™๐—ข๐—ฅ $๐Ÿต๐Ÿณ ๐—จ๐—ฆD

๐š๐ง๐ ๐ ๐ž๐ญ ๐š๐ง ๐ž๐š๐ฌ๐ฒ ๐…๐Ž๐‘๐Œ๐”๐‹๐€ ๐ญ๐ก๐š๐ญ ๐ฐ๐จ๐ซ๐ค๐ฌ

๐€ ๐๐‘๐Ž๐‚๐„๐’๐’ ๐˜๐Ž๐” ๐‚๐€๐ ๐…๐Ž๐‹๐‹๐Ž๐–

๐‡๐€๐๐ˆ๐“๐’ ๐“๐‡๐€๐“ ๐–๐ˆ๐‹๐‹ ๐†๐„๐“ ๐˜๐Ž๐” ๐“๐Ž





๐’๐ˆ๐†๐ ๐”๐ ๐“๐Ž๐ƒ๐€๐˜ ๐Ž๐ ๐“๐‡๐„ ๐‹๐ˆ๐๐Š ๐๐„๐‹๐Ž๐–

๐…๐Ž๐‘ $๐Ÿ—๐Ÿ• ๐”๐’๐ƒ๐Ÿ‘‡๐Ÿผ

๐‹๐„๐€๐‘๐ ๐…๐‘๐Ž๐Œ ๐’๐Ž๐Œ๐„๐Ž๐๐„ ๐–๐‡๐Ž ๐‡๐€๐’ ๐ƒ๐Ž๐๐„ ๐ˆ๐“ ๐€๐๐ƒ ๐ˆ๐“ ๐ˆ๐’ ๐€ ๐‹๐ˆ๐•๐ˆ๐๐† ๐๐‘๐Ž๐Ž๐… ๐Ž๐… ๐ˆ๐“

๐๐’: ๐๐ˆ๐‚๐“๐”๐‘๐„๐’ ๐€๐‘๐„ ๐๐„๐•๐„๐‘ ๐„๐ƒ๐ˆ๐“๐„๐ƒ ๐Ÿ™Œ๐‰๐”๐’๐“ ๐“๐‡๐„ ๐‘๐„๐€๐‹ ๐Œ๐„๐Ÿค˜

From Stage 3 Bowel Cancer to feeling the healthiest I have ever been
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I had a terrible habit to blameโ€ฆ.

Blame other peopleโ€ฆ

Blame my circumstancesโ€ฆ.

Blame my โ€œbad luckโ€

Blame the person who is driving slowly in front of me when I am late

Blame the car park that was too tight because I am such a bad driver to park the carโ€ฆ

Ya know how it goes right?

You have a habit to blame and you blame everythingโ€ฆ

It is easyโ€ฆ

It makes you feel you are rightโ€ฆ.

And the world is wrongโ€ฆ

But when I made a decision to take full responsibility of my lifeโ€ฆ

I had to undo the โ€œblamingโ€ habitโ€ฆ

And in every situation I started asking myself questions like:

โ€œWhat can I learn here?โ€

โ€œIs this happening with me because I need to see something that I couldnโ€™t see?โ€

Taking responsibility is a little more challengingโ€ฆ

It requires practiceโ€ฆ.

It requires discipline and persistenceโ€ฆ

These are the main lessons I learned when I start taking full responsibility of my life

Taking responsibility empowers you even when it hurtsโ€ฆ

Blaming leaves your powerlessโ€ฆ

When you take responsibility, you can change anything in your life because you are in controlโ€ฆ

Blaming makes you feel you canโ€™t change anythingโ€ฆ

Taking responsibility is a practice that gives you energyโ€ฆ

Blaming is a practice that drains your energyโ€ฆ

Taking responsibility of where you are at and who you are is an important step towards changing your life but again it is a practice and habit.

โ€œAccept responsibility for your life. Know that it is you who will get where you want to go. No one elseโ€ Les Brown

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Fear is stopping you from living

“๐™๐™š๐™–๐™ง ๐™™๐™ค๐™š๐™จ๐™ฃโ€™๐™ฉ ๐™จ๐™ฉ๐™ค๐™ฅ ๐™™๐™š๐™–๐™ฉ๐™, ๐™ž๐™ฉ ๐™จ๐™ฉ๐™ค๐™ฅ๐™จ ๐™ก๐™ž๐™›๐™šโ€

When the pastor asked me what do you think it is going to happen if you die?

I was sobbingโ€ฆ

I had so much fear inside my head to leave my kidsโ€ฆ

My husband…

To leave my lifeโ€ฆ

And everything I wanted to liveโ€ฆ

As I imagined my funeral dayโ€ฆ

๐˜”๐˜บ ๐˜ฌ๐˜ช๐˜ฅ๐˜ด ๐˜ฃ๐˜ช๐˜ณ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฅ๐˜ข๐˜บ๐˜ด

๐˜๐˜ช๐˜ณ๐˜ด๐˜ต ๐˜ฅ๐˜ข๐˜บ ๐˜ข๐˜ต ๐˜ฉ๐˜ช๐˜จ๐˜ฉ ๐˜ด๐˜ค๐˜ฉ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฐ๐˜ญ

๐˜‰๐˜ฐ๐˜บ๐˜ง๐˜ณ๐˜ช๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฅ๐˜ด, ๐˜จ๐˜ช๐˜ณ๐˜ญ๐˜ง๐˜ณ๐˜ช๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฅ๐˜ด, ๐˜ฑ๐˜ข๐˜ณ๐˜ต๐˜ช๐˜ฆ๐˜ด


Without me…

I answered the question:

๐™‰๐™ค๐™ฉ๐™๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™œ ๐™ž๐™จ ๐™œ๐™ค๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™œ ๐™ฉ๐™ค ๐™๐™–๐™ฅ๐™ฅ๐™š๐™ฃ ๐™ž๐™› ๐™„ ๐™™๐™ž๐™š

My kids, my husband would be sad but they would need to keep livingโ€ฆ

As I left the pastorโ€™s officeI felt free…

It was exactly what I needed to hear…

Maybe a little tough for some but for me was divinely presented by the pastor…

As God presented each step in my journey to healing…

๐—œ ๐˜„๐—ฎ๐˜€๐—ป’๐˜ ๐—ด๐—ผ๐—ถ๐—ป๐—ด ๐˜๐—ผ ๐˜€๐—ฝ๐—ฒ๐—ป๐—ฑ ๐—ผ๐—ป๐—ฒ ๐—บ๐—ผ๐—ฟ๐—ฒ ๐—ฑ๐—ฎ๐˜† ๐˜๐—ต๐—ถ๐—ป๐—ธ๐—ถ๐—ป๐—ด ๐—ฎ๐—ฏ๐—ผ๐˜‚๐˜ ๐—ฑ๐˜†๐—ถ๐—ป๐—ด…


I was going to live each day to the full….

๐˜ ๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ๐˜ข๐˜ญ๐˜ช๐˜ด๐˜ฆ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ต ๐˜ข๐˜ญ๐˜ญ ๐˜ข๐˜ญ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ๐˜จ ๐˜ ๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ฅ ๐˜ฃ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ ๐˜ค๐˜ญ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ ๐˜ฎ๐˜บ ๐˜ด๐˜ถ๐˜ง๐˜ง๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ…

๐˜›๐˜ฐ ๐˜ฎ๐˜บ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ธ๐˜ฏ ๐˜ฎ๐˜ช๐˜ด๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜บ….

๐˜›๐˜ฐ ๐˜ฎ๐˜บ ๐˜ฃ๐˜ข๐˜ค๐˜ฌ ๐˜ด๐˜ต๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ๐˜บ…

๐˜›๐˜ฐ ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฆ๐˜จ๐˜ข๐˜ต๐˜ช๐˜ท๐˜ฆ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜จ๐˜ฉ๐˜ต๐˜ด….

๐˜ž๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ๐˜ณ๐˜บ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ ๐˜ข๐˜ฃ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜ต ๐˜ธ๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ต ๐˜ด๐˜ฐ๐˜ค๐˜ช๐˜ฆ๐˜ต๐˜บ ๐˜ฆ๐˜น๐˜ฑ๐˜ฆ๐˜ค๐˜ต๐˜ฆ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ง๐˜ณ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฎ ๐˜ฎ๐˜ฆ…

๐˜Œ๐˜ท๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜จ๐˜ฉ ๐˜ ๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ฅ ๐˜ญ๐˜ฆ๐˜ง๐˜ต ๐˜ฎ๐˜บ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ธ๐˜ฏ ๐˜ค๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜ฏ๐˜ต๐˜ณ๐˜บ ๐˜ง๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ต ๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ๐˜ข๐˜ด๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ญ๐˜ช๐˜ท๐˜ฆ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ 6 ๐˜ค๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜ฏ๐˜ต๐˜ณ๐˜ช๐˜ฆ๐˜ด ๐˜ข๐˜ง๐˜ต๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ต…

All of that baggage and beliefs…

Came with me everywhere I went…

And it got me sick….

These days when I have a stressful day, a difficult conversation, a challenging time….

I remember the days I couldn’t even get out of bed….

What an amazing gift to live again….

and go through challenges again…

๐™„๐™› ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช ๐™ฌ๐™–๐™ฃ๐™ฉ ๐™ฉ๐™ค ๐™˜๐™๐™–๐™ฃ๐™œ๐™š ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช๐™ง ๐™ก๐™ž๐™›๐™š….

๐˜ฟ๐™ค๐™ฃ’๐™ฉ ๐™œ๐™š๐™ฉ ๐™ช๐™จ๐™š๐™™ ๐™ฉ๐™ค ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช๐™ง ๐™ฅ๐™–๐™ž๐™ฃ…

๐™๐™ค ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช๐™ง ๐™—๐™–๐™œ๐™œ๐™–๐™œ๐™š….

๐™๐™ค ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช๐™ง ๐™ฅ๐™๐™ฎ๐™จ๐™ž๐™˜๐™–๐™ก ๐™จ๐™ฉ๐™–๐™ฉ๐™š (๐™ฎ๐™š๐™จ ๐™›๐™ง๐™ค๐™ข ๐™š๐™ญ๐™ฅ๐™š๐™ง๐™ž๐™š๐™ฃ๐™˜๐™š ๐™„ ๐™˜๐™–๐™ฃ ๐™ฉ๐™–๐™ก๐™  ๐™–๐™—๐™ค๐™ช๐™ฉ ๐™ฉ๐™๐™ž๐™จ ๐™š๐™ญ๐™ฉ๐™š๐™ฃ๐™จ๐™ž๐™ซ๐™š๐™ก๐™ฎ)

๐˜ฟ๐™ค๐™ฃ’๐™ฉ ๐™œ๐™š๐™ฉ ๐™ช๐™จ๐™š๐™™ ๐™ฉ๐™ค ๐™™๐™ค๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™œ ๐™ฌ๐™๐™–๐™ฉ ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช ๐™™๐™ค๐™ฃ’๐™ฉ ๐™ก๐™ค๐™ซ๐™š ๐™š๐™–๐™˜๐™ ๐™™๐™–๐™ฎ (๐™ฉ๐™๐™ž๐™จ ๐™ช๐™ฃ๐™๐™–๐™ฅ๐™ฅ๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™š๐™จ๐™จ ๐™™๐™–๐™ข๐™–๐™œ๐™š๐™จ ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช๐™ง ๐™ฅ๐™๐™ฎ๐™จ๐™ž๐™˜๐™–๐™ก ๐™—๐™ค๐™™๐™ฎ)


๐™ˆ๐™–๐™ ๐™š ๐™– ๐™™๐™š๐™˜๐™ž๐™จ๐™ž๐™ค๐™ฃ ๐™ฉ๐™ค ๐™˜๐™๐™–๐™ฃ๐™œ๐™š…

๐˜ฝ๐™š ๐™ฌ๐™ž๐™ก๐™ก๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™œ ๐™–๐™ฃ๐™™ ๐™ค๐™ฅ๐™š๐™ฃ ๐™ฉ๐™ค ๐™™๐™ค ๐™ž๐™ฉ…

๐™‚๐™š๐™ฉ ๐™œ๐™ช๐™ž๐™™๐™–๐™ฃ๐™˜๐™š ๐™ฌ๐™๐™š๐™ง๐™š ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช ๐™–๐™ง๐™š ๐™จ๐™ฉ๐™ช๐™˜๐™ …

๐™๐™–๐™ ๐™š ๐™จ๐™ฉ๐™š๐™ฅ๐™จ ๐™š๐™–๐™˜๐™ ๐™™๐™–๐™ฎ ๐™ง๐™š๐™ก๐™š๐™ฃ๐™ฉ๐™ก๐™š๐™จ๐™จ ๐™ฉ๐™ค ๐™œ๐™š๐™ฉ๐™ฉ๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™œ ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช๐™ง ๐™œ๐™ค๐™–๐™ก๐™จ…

๐˜ฝ๐™š๐™˜๐™–๐™ช๐™จ๐™š ๐™ž๐™› ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช ๐™™๐™ค, ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช ๐™’๐™„๐™‡๐™‡ ๐™œ๐™š๐™ฉ ๐™ฉ๐™๐™š ๐™ง๐™š๐™จ๐™ช๐™ก๐™ฉ๐™จ ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช ๐™ฌ๐™–๐™ฃ๐™ฉ….

Not in a million years I would have thought I would be at the best shape in my life after cancer treatment

Not in a million years I thought I would have my own business helping people to change their lives….

It all started with a decision…

A decision to live a life that I wanted….

On my terms…

And a decision to doing the work every day….

Everything that was required to get there and beyond…

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Are you healing?

I hate depending on peopleโ€ฆ

I left my country when I was 21 years old with a deep desire to prove โ€œgirlsโ€ didnโ€™t have to get married and have kids if they didnโ€™t want toโ€ฆ

Yes I did get married and have children but I got to do what I wanted before hand ๐Ÿ”ฅ

I was the first in a large extended family that chose a โ€œnot so normal pathโ€

Instead of staying in my parents house until I got married, I went to the other side of the world without a planโ€ฆ

After living in 5 different countries, I have always carved my own pathโ€ฆ

With nobody to bail meโ€ฆ

And settling for what it was easy and comfortable is just not meโ€ฆ

In my healing journey, this desire not to depend on anything served me wellโ€ฆ

As I found myself depending on doctors and medications, once more I came back to myselfโ€ฆ

What could I do to change my situation?

What could I do each day to help my body and mind?

I took my power back completelyโ€ฆ

I vouched myself I wasnโ€™t going to depend on anythingโ€ฆ

My healing journey consisted of me, myself and Iโ€ฆ

Since chemo finished 2.5 years ago, I havenโ€™t had one single coldโ€ฆ

I havenโ€™t taken any medication

And I donโ€™t take supplements either ( only B12 bcs I eat a plant based diet)My health gets better and better each dayโ€ฆ

I believe we all have an incredible power within usโ€ฆ

All the time you keep looking for answers on the outsideโ€ฆ

You are distraction yourself from your inner powerโ€ฆ

If you are looking to heal yourself, this is my 2 cents on it:

Stop looking on the outside, spend time finding the answers within you.

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How to leave your comfort zone…

The real pain and suffering comes from not making uncomfortable decisions

I remember how uncomfortable I felt

How unhappy I was

How lost I felt

Before cancer I feel my life was a blurโ€ฆ

I didnโ€™t know who I wasโ€ฆ

If I was coming or goingโ€ฆ

I was never presentโ€ฆ

My focus was scatteredโ€ฆ

I was running awayโ€ฆ

Because being in my body was uncomfortable

My thoughts were always racing in the wrong directionsโ€ฆ

All of a sudden it was as if someone pressed pause in my life:I needed to think about how I was going to press play againโ€ฆ

Did I want to run the same movie again?

Or did I want to create a different one?

Creating a different one felt impossibleโ€ฆ

It felt like a lot of workโ€ฆ

It felt painfulโ€ฆ

But doing the same thing over and over again wasn’t an option anymoreโ€ฆ

It lead me to sicknessโ€ฆ

I needed to recognise thatโ€ฆ

As I took the leapโ€ฆ

And started creating a new movie.

I realised that taking uncomfortable actions were not as uncomfortable as I was livingโ€ฆ

Creating a new movie wasnโ€™t as scary as staying in the one I had been running my whole life.

When you ask yourself for real: what is it more uncomfortable?

Staying where you are or creating a new version of you where you become who you want to be?

You might be tempted to answer staying where I amโ€ฆ

But if you dig deeper and ask yourselfโ€ฆ

Do I feel good in my body?

Are my thoughts contributing to my well being?

Do I mostly live in a beautiful or a frustrated state of mind?

I guess it is up to each of us to choose which unconfortable choice we wantโ€ฆ๐Ÿ˜‰

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The easiest way to get healthy….

Look I read over 100 books about health now…

I have studied a Quantum Health Coach certification, to become a yoga teacher and I am currently studying a Bachelor of Natural Medicine…

But what I can say is…

My most important understanding and knowledge about health came with…

Sitting at the chemo chair…

When I understood the value of it…

Being dependent on medication…

When I literally need it each week…

Suffering physically…

I am not sure how many times I got pricked and pocked…

how many times I was in unbearable pain and discomfort…

My understanding of health came from slowly building a different relationship with my body…

Understanding what was going in my mind…

And connecting to my soul…

That sounds full on right?

The truth is…

There wasn’t and there isn’t a quick way…

There wasn’t and there isn’t a magic pill..

It is a little like believing in the get rich quick scheme…

There isn’t one right!

But somehow we put all our efforts on that…

The money making…

The external stuff…

The stuff that doesn’t contribute to our health one single bit…

So if you are serious about taking radical responsibility about your health…

And you are not looking for a magic pill,…

I would love to hear from you…


And if you think you have a winning formula and you are doing everything you can to support your health.

I am proud of you!

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Do you wake up exhausted?

You wake up thinking: I am exhausted!!!

And a voice inside you answers: but you need to keep going….

To which you answer: Yes I know.

Then you jump on your treadmill and you start your day…

By the way the treadmill here is not a real one, it is just your life…

You can observe from here how that goes…

It is a never ending race where you go from one thing to another with nothing left for you.

I never thought there was another way…

I thought everybody had to just run themselves ragged…day in day out…

I thought this was the only way to living…

Until I was forced to find another way…

I always say to my husband that if my cancer had been Stage 1 or Stage 2, I would have gone back straight onto that treadmill again…

Sadly this is the reality of it all…

I needed a big shake up…

My wake up call needed to be serious…SUPER SERIOUS…for me to listen…

So I did…

In the process of leaving my corporate job and starting my business, I thought for a moment that everyone would like to hear my story…

Everyone would like to see that there was another way…

But I realized that mostly I speak to the older version of myself…

And the older version of myself would have never done, seen or believed that there was another way…

She was so stuck in that pattern that she needed something pretty big to stop that treadmill.

Besides she was too scared to admit she was wrong…

She was too embarrassed to admit she needed help.

I realized that to stay focus on bringing awareness to the “old version of myself”, I needed to connect to something a lot deeper inside me…

So daily I connect to the “old me” and I feel so much compassion for that lady…

who tried so hard…

who never gave up…

but who secretly wanted something else….

If you wanna reach out for help, you know where I am.

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How to take responsibility for your life

When I was diagnosed with Stage 3 Bowel Cancer, I knew I couldn’t count on anybody or anything outside of me. I needed to count on me only…

Meaning…I needed to take full responsibility for what I had done to get me to my diagnosis. There was no more stories, blaming, resentment that I could depend on if I wanted to survive chemotherapy.

I knew turning up to chemo wasn’t going to save me. Cancer recurrence is massive…and I didn’t want to live a life walking in egg shells, scared that cancer was going to come back…

Taking personal responsibility is very different than blaming myself. I never for one moment regret how I lived up to that point, I just made a decision to make different choices from that moment on…

I started reading every book I could find on health, cancer, diet, exercise, emotional healing…you name it. I couldn’t leave up to chance anymore…

I needed to take this seriously…

I felt I got another chance to live…

I wasn’t going to press repeat this time and stay stuck thinking everything I had done to that point was right…

I had to let go of the need to be right…

I had to let go everything I knew behind…

I had to let go everything I felt was contributing to my diagnosis…

Life is constantly changing…throwing us curve balls….sometimes pretty big ones…

We can choose to stay in the same place, doing the same thing and getting the same results

Or we can change to adapt, change and respond to it by accepting personal responsibility and making different choices.