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I had a terrible habit to blame….

Blame other people…

Blame my circumstances….

Blame my “bad luck”

Blame the person who is driving slowly in front of me when I am late

Blame the car park that was too tight because I am such a bad driver to park the car…

Ya know how it goes right?

You have a habit to blame and you blame everything…

It is easy…

It makes you feel you are right….

And the world is wrong…

But when I made a decision to take full responsibility of my life…

I had to undo the “blaming” habit…

And in every situation I started asking myself questions like:

“What can I learn here?”

“Is this happening with me because I need to see something that I couldn’t see?”

Taking responsibility is a little more challenging…

It requires practice….

It requires discipline and persistence…

These are the main lessons I learned when I start taking full responsibility of my life

Taking responsibility empowers you even when it hurts…

Blaming leaves your powerless…

When you take responsibility, you can change anything in your life because you are in control…

Blaming makes you feel you can’t change anything…

Taking responsibility is a practice that gives you energy…

Blaming is a practice that drains your energy…

Taking responsibility of where you are at and who you are is an important step towards changing your life but again it is a practice and habit.

“Accept responsibility for your life. Know that it is you who will get where you want to go. No one else” Les Brown

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“𝙁𝙚𝙖𝙧 𝙙𝙤𝙚𝙨𝙣’𝙩 𝙨𝙩𝙤𝙥 𝙙𝙚𝙖𝙩𝙝, 𝙞𝙩 𝙨𝙩𝙤𝙥𝙨 𝙡𝙞𝙛𝙚”

When the pastor asked me what do you think it is going to happen if you die?

I was sobbing…

I had so much fear inside my head to leave my kids…

My husband…

To leave my life…

And everything I wanted to live…

As I imagined my funeral day…

𝘔𝘺 𝘬𝘪𝘥𝘴 𝘣𝘪𝘳𝘵𝘩𝘥𝘢𝘺𝘴𝘍𝘪𝘳𝘴𝘵 𝘥𝘢𝘺 𝘢𝘵 𝘩𝘪𝘨𝘩 𝘴𝘤𝘩𝘰𝘰𝘭

𝘉𝘰𝘺𝘧𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘯𝘥𝘴, 𝘨𝘪𝘳𝘭𝘧𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘯𝘥𝘴, 𝘱𝘢𝘳𝘵𝘪𝘦𝘴

𝘞𝘦𝘥𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴

Without me…

I answered the question:

𝙉𝙤𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙞𝙨 𝙜𝙤𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙩𝙤 𝙝𝙖𝙥𝙥𝙚𝙣 𝙞𝙛 𝙄 𝙙𝙞𝙚

My kids, my husband would be sad but they would need to keep living…

As I left the pastor’s officeI felt free…

It was exactly what I needed to hear…

Maybe a little tough for some but for me was divinely presented by the pastor…

As God presented each step in my journey to healing…

𝗜 𝘄𝗮𝘀𝗻’𝘁 𝗴𝗼𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘁𝗼 𝘀𝗽𝗲𝗻𝗱 𝗼𝗻𝗲 𝗺𝗼𝗿𝗲 𝗱𝗮𝘆 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗸𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗮𝗯𝗼𝘂𝘁 𝗱𝘆𝗶𝗻𝗴…

Instead….

I was going to live each day to the full….

𝘐 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘪𝘴𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘢𝘭𝘰𝘯𝘨 𝘐 𝘩𝘢𝘥 𝘣𝘦𝘦𝘯 𝘤𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘦𝘥 𝘰𝘯 𝘵𝘰 𝘮𝘺 𝘴𝘶𝘧𝘧𝘦𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨…

𝘛𝘰 𝘮𝘺 𝘰𝘸𝘯 𝘮𝘪𝘴𝘦𝘳𝘺….

𝘛𝘰 𝘮𝘺 𝘣𝘢𝘤𝘬 𝘴𝘵𝘰𝘳𝘺…

𝘛𝘰 𝘯𝘦𝘨𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩𝘵𝘴….

𝘞𝘰𝘳𝘳𝘺𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘴𝘰𝘤𝘪𝘦𝘵𝘺 𝘦𝘹𝘱𝘦𝘤𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘮𝘦…

𝘌𝘷𝘦𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩 𝘐 𝘩𝘢𝘥 𝘭𝘦𝘧𝘵 𝘮𝘺 𝘰𝘸𝘯 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘵𝘳𝘺 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘰𝘯 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘭𝘪𝘷𝘦𝘥 𝘪𝘯 6 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘵𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘴 𝘢𝘧𝘵𝘦𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵…

All of that baggage and beliefs…

Came with me everywhere I went…

And it got me sick….

These days when I have a stressful day, a difficult conversation, a challenging time….

I remember the days I couldn’t even get out of bed….

What an amazing gift to live again….

and go through challenges again…

𝙄𝙛 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙩 𝙩𝙤 𝙘𝙝𝙖𝙣𝙜𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙡𝙞𝙛𝙚….

𝘿𝙤𝙣’𝙩 𝙜𝙚𝙩 𝙪𝙨𝙚𝙙 𝙩𝙤 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙥𝙖𝙞𝙣…

𝙏𝙤 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙗𝙖𝙜𝙜𝙖𝙜𝙚….

𝙏𝙤 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙥𝙝𝙮𝙨𝙞𝙘𝙖𝙡 𝙨𝙩𝙖𝙩𝙚 (𝙮𝙚𝙨 𝙛𝙧𝙤𝙢 𝙚𝙭𝙥𝙚𝙧𝙞𝙚𝙣𝙘𝙚 𝙄 𝙘𝙖𝙣 𝙩𝙖𝙡𝙠 𝙖𝙗𝙤𝙪𝙩 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙨 𝙚𝙭𝙩𝙚𝙣𝙨𝙞𝙫𝙚𝙡𝙮)

𝘿𝙤𝙣’𝙩 𝙜𝙚𝙩 𝙪𝙨𝙚𝙙 𝙩𝙤 𝙙𝙤𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙙𝙤𝙣’𝙩 𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙚 𝙚𝙖𝙘𝙝 𝙙𝙖𝙮 (𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙨 𝙪𝙣𝙝𝙖𝙥𝙥𝙞𝙣𝙚𝙨𝙨 𝙙𝙖𝙢𝙖𝙜𝙚𝙨 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙥𝙝𝙮𝙨𝙞𝙘𝙖𝙡 𝙗𝙤𝙙𝙮)

Instead

𝙈𝙖𝙠𝙚 𝙖 𝙙𝙚𝙘𝙞𝙨𝙞𝙤𝙣 𝙩𝙤 𝙘𝙝𝙖𝙣𝙜𝙚…

𝘽𝙚 𝙬𝙞𝙡𝙡𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙤𝙥𝙚𝙣 𝙩𝙤 𝙙𝙤 𝙞𝙩…

𝙂𝙚𝙩 𝙜𝙪𝙞𝙙𝙖𝙣𝙘𝙚 𝙬𝙝𝙚𝙧𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙨𝙩𝙪𝙘𝙠…

𝙏𝙖𝙠𝙚 𝙨𝙩𝙚𝙥𝙨 𝙚𝙖𝙘𝙝 𝙙𝙖𝙮 𝙧𝙚𝙡𝙚𝙣𝙩𝙡𝙚𝙨𝙨 𝙩𝙤 𝙜𝙚𝙩𝙩𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙜𝙤𝙖𝙡𝙨…

𝘽𝙚𝙘𝙖𝙪𝙨𝙚 𝙞𝙛 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙙𝙤, 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙒𝙄𝙇𝙇 𝙜𝙚𝙩 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙧𝙚𝙨𝙪𝙡𝙩𝙨 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙩….

Not in a million years I would have thought I would be at the best shape in my life after cancer treatment

Not in a million years I thought I would have my own business helping people to change their lives….

It all started with a decision…

A decision to live a life that I wanted….

On my terms…

And a decision to doing the work every day….

Everything that was required to get there and beyond…

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Are you healing?

I hate depending on people…

I left my country when I was 21 years old with a deep desire to prove “girls” didn’t have to get married and have kids if they didn’t want to…

Yes I did get married and have children but I got to do what I wanted before hand 🔥

I was the first in a large extended family that chose a “not so normal path”

Instead of staying in my parents house until I got married, I went to the other side of the world without a plan…

After living in 5 different countries, I have always carved my own path…

With nobody to bail me…

And settling for what it was easy and comfortable is just not me…

In my healing journey, this desire not to depend on anything served me well…

As I found myself depending on doctors and medications, once more I came back to myself…

What could I do to change my situation?

What could I do each day to help my body and mind?

I took my power back completely…

I vouched myself I wasn’t going to depend on anything…

My healing journey consisted of me, myself and I…

Since chemo finished 2.5 years ago, I haven’t had one single cold…

I haven’t taken any medication

And I don’t take supplements either ( only B12 bcs I eat a plant based diet)My health gets better and better each day…

I believe we all have an incredible power within us…

All the time you keep looking for answers on the outside…

You are distraction yourself from your inner power…

If you are looking to heal yourself, this is my 2 cents on it:

Stop looking on the outside, spend time finding the answers within you.

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Are you comfortable?

The real pain and suffering comes from not making uncomfortable decisions

I remember how uncomfortable I felt

How unhappy I was

How lost I felt

Before cancer I feel my life was a blur…

I didn’t know who I was…

If I was coming or going…

I was never present…

My focus was scattered…

I was running away…

Because being in my body was uncomfortable

My thoughts were always racing in the wrong directions…

All of a sudden it was as if someone pressed pause in my life:I needed to think about how I was going to press play again…

Did I want to run the same movie again?

Or did I want to create a different one?

Creating a different one felt impossible…

It felt like a lot of work…

It felt painful…

But doing the same thing over and over again wasn’t an option anymore…

It lead me to sickness…

I needed to recognise that…

As I took the leap…

And started creating a new movie.

I realised that taking uncomfortable actions were not as uncomfortable as I was living…

Creating a new movie wasn’t as scary as staying in the one I had been running my whole life.

When you ask yourself for real: what is it more uncomfortable?

Staying where you are or creating a new version of you where you become who you want to be?

You might be tempted to answer staying where I am…

But if you dig deeper and ask yourself…

Do I feel good in my body?

Are my thoughts contributing to my well being?

Do I mostly live in a beautiful or a frustrated state of mind?

I guess it is up to each of us to choose which unconfortable choice we want…😉

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The easiest way to get healthy….

Look I read over 100 books about health now…

I have studied a Quantum Health Coach certification, to become a yoga teacher and I am currently studying a Bachelor of Natural Medicine…

But what I can say is…

My most important understanding and knowledge about health came with…

Sitting at the chemo chair…

When I understood the value of it…

Being dependent on medication…

When I literally need it each week…

Suffering physically…

I am not sure how many times I got pricked and pocked…

how many times I was in unbearable pain and discomfort…

My understanding of health came from slowly building a different relationship with my body…

Understanding what was going in my mind…

And connecting to my soul…

That sounds full on right?

The truth is…

There wasn’t and there isn’t a quick way…

There wasn’t and there isn’t a magic pill..

It is a little like believing in the get rich quick scheme…

There isn’t one right!

But somehow we put all our efforts on that…

The money making…

The external stuff…

The stuff that doesn’t contribute to our health one single bit…

So if you are serious about taking radical responsibility about your health…

And you are not looking for a magic pill,…

I would love to hear from you…

BOOK A CALL

And if you think you have a winning formula and you are doing everything you can to support your health.

I am proud of you!

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Does this sound familiar?

You wake up thinking: I am exhausted!!!

And a voice inside you answers: but you need to keep going….

To which you answer: Yes I know.

Then you jump on your treadmill and you start your day…

By the way the treadmill here is not a real one, it is just your life…

You can observe from here how that goes…

It is a never ending race where you go from one thing to another with nothing left for you.

I never thought there was another way…

I thought everybody had to just run themselves ragged…day in day out…

I thought this was the only way to living…

Until I was forced to find another way…

I always say to my husband that if my cancer had been Stage 1 or Stage 2, I would have gone back straight onto that treadmill again…

Sadly this is the reality of it all…

I needed a big shake up…

My wake up call needed to be serious…SUPER SERIOUS…for me to listen…

So I did…

In the process of leaving my corporate job and starting my business, I thought for a moment that everyone would like to hear my story…

Everyone would like to see that there was another way…

But I realized that mostly I speak to the older version of myself…

And the older version of myself would have never done, seen or believed that there was another way…

She was so stuck in that pattern that she needed something pretty big to stop that treadmill.

Besides she was too scared to admit she was wrong…

She was too embarrassed to admit she needed help.

I realized that to stay focus on bringing awareness to the “old version of myself”, I needed to connect to something a lot deeper inside me…

So daily I connect to the “old me” and I feel so much compassion for that lady…

who tried so hard…

who never gave up…

but who secretly wanted something else….

If you wanna reach out for help, you know where I am.

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Are you taking responsibility for your life?

When I was diagnosed with Stage 3 Bowel Cancer, I knew I couldn’t count on anybody or anything outside of me. I needed to count on me only…

Meaning…I needed to take full responsibility for what I had done to get me to my diagnosis. There was no more stories, blaming, resentment that I could depend on if I wanted to survive chemotherapy.

I knew turning up to chemo wasn’t going to save me. Cancer recurrence is massive…and I didn’t want to live a life walking in egg shells, scared that cancer was going to come back…

Taking personal responsibility is very different than blaming myself. I never for one moment regret how I lived up to that point, I just made a decision to make different choices from that moment on…

I started reading every book I could find on health, cancer, diet, exercise, emotional healing…you name it. I couldn’t leave up to chance anymore…

I needed to take this seriously…

I felt I got another chance to live…

I wasn’t going to press repeat this time and stay stuck thinking everything I had done to that point was right…

I had to let go of the need to be right…

I had to let go everything I knew behind…

I had to let go everything I felt was contributing to my diagnosis…

Life is constantly changing…throwing us curve balls….sometimes pretty big ones…

We can choose to stay in the same place, doing the same thing and getting the same results

Or we can change to adapt, change and respond to it by accepting personal responsibility and making different choices.