You wake up thinking: I am exhausted!!!
And a voice inside you answers: but you need to keep going….
To which you answer: Yes I know.
Then you jump on your treadmill and you start your day…
By the way the treadmill here is not a real one, it is just your life…
You can observe from here how that goes…
It is a never ending race where you go from one thing to another with nothing left for you.
I never thought there was another way…
I thought everybody had to just run themselves ragged…day in day out…
I thought this was the only way to living…
Until I was forced to find another way…
I always say to my husband that if my cancer had been Stage 1 or Stage 2, I would have gone back straight onto that treadmill again…
Sadly this is the reality of it all…
I needed a big shake up…
My wake up call needed to be serious…SUPER SERIOUS…for me to listen…
So I did…
In the process of leaving my corporate job and starting my business, I thought for a moment that everyone would like to hear my story…
Everyone would like to see that there was another way…
But I realized that mostly I speak to the older version of myself…
And the older version of myself would have never done, seen or believed that there was another way…
She was so stuck in that pattern that she needed something pretty big to stop that treadmill.
Besides she was too scared to admit she was wrong…
She was too embarrassed to admit she needed help.
I realized that to stay focus on bringing awareness to the “old version of myself”, I needed to connect to something a lot deeper inside me…
So daily I connect to the “old me” and I feel so much compassion for that lady…
who tried so hard…
who never gave up…
but who secretly wanted something else….
If you wanna reach out for help, you know where I am.