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Fear is stopping you from living

“๐™๐™š๐™–๐™ง ๐™™๐™ค๐™š๐™จ๐™ฃโ€™๐™ฉ ๐™จ๐™ฉ๐™ค๐™ฅ ๐™™๐™š๐™–๐™ฉ๐™, ๐™ž๐™ฉ ๐™จ๐™ฉ๐™ค๐™ฅ๐™จ ๐™ก๐™ž๐™›๐™šโ€

When the pastor asked me what do you think it is going to happen if you die?

I was sobbingโ€ฆ

I had so much fear inside my head to leave my kidsโ€ฆ

My husband…

To leave my lifeโ€ฆ

And everything I wanted to liveโ€ฆ

As I imagined my funeral dayโ€ฆ

๐˜”๐˜บ ๐˜ฌ๐˜ช๐˜ฅ๐˜ด ๐˜ฃ๐˜ช๐˜ณ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฅ๐˜ข๐˜บ๐˜ด

๐˜๐˜ช๐˜ณ๐˜ด๐˜ต ๐˜ฅ๐˜ข๐˜บ ๐˜ข๐˜ต ๐˜ฉ๐˜ช๐˜จ๐˜ฉ ๐˜ด๐˜ค๐˜ฉ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฐ๐˜ญ

๐˜‰๐˜ฐ๐˜บ๐˜ง๐˜ณ๐˜ช๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฅ๐˜ด, ๐˜จ๐˜ช๐˜ณ๐˜ญ๐˜ง๐˜ณ๐˜ช๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฅ๐˜ด, ๐˜ฑ๐˜ข๐˜ณ๐˜ต๐˜ช๐˜ฆ๐˜ด

๐˜ž๐˜ฆ๐˜ฅ๐˜ฅ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ๐˜ด

Without me…

I answered the question:

๐™‰๐™ค๐™ฉ๐™๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™œ ๐™ž๐™จ ๐™œ๐™ค๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™œ ๐™ฉ๐™ค ๐™๐™–๐™ฅ๐™ฅ๐™š๐™ฃ ๐™ž๐™› ๐™„ ๐™™๐™ž๐™š

My kids, my husband would be sad but they would need to keep livingโ€ฆ

As I left the pastorโ€™s officeI felt free…

It was exactly what I needed to hear…

Maybe a little tough for some but for me was divinely presented by the pastor…

As God presented each step in my journey to healing…

๐—œ ๐˜„๐—ฎ๐˜€๐—ป’๐˜ ๐—ด๐—ผ๐—ถ๐—ป๐—ด ๐˜๐—ผ ๐˜€๐—ฝ๐—ฒ๐—ป๐—ฑ ๐—ผ๐—ป๐—ฒ ๐—บ๐—ผ๐—ฟ๐—ฒ ๐—ฑ๐—ฎ๐˜† ๐˜๐—ต๐—ถ๐—ป๐—ธ๐—ถ๐—ป๐—ด ๐—ฎ๐—ฏ๐—ผ๐˜‚๐˜ ๐—ฑ๐˜†๐—ถ๐—ป๐—ด…

Instead….

I was going to live each day to the full….

๐˜ ๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ๐˜ข๐˜ญ๐˜ช๐˜ด๐˜ฆ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ต ๐˜ข๐˜ญ๐˜ญ ๐˜ข๐˜ญ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ๐˜จ ๐˜ ๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ฅ ๐˜ฃ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ ๐˜ค๐˜ญ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ ๐˜ฎ๐˜บ ๐˜ด๐˜ถ๐˜ง๐˜ง๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ…

๐˜›๐˜ฐ ๐˜ฎ๐˜บ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ธ๐˜ฏ ๐˜ฎ๐˜ช๐˜ด๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜บ….

๐˜›๐˜ฐ ๐˜ฎ๐˜บ ๐˜ฃ๐˜ข๐˜ค๐˜ฌ ๐˜ด๐˜ต๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ๐˜บ…

๐˜›๐˜ฐ ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฆ๐˜จ๐˜ข๐˜ต๐˜ช๐˜ท๐˜ฆ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜จ๐˜ฉ๐˜ต๐˜ด….

๐˜ž๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ๐˜ณ๐˜บ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ ๐˜ข๐˜ฃ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜ต ๐˜ธ๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ต ๐˜ด๐˜ฐ๐˜ค๐˜ช๐˜ฆ๐˜ต๐˜บ ๐˜ฆ๐˜น๐˜ฑ๐˜ฆ๐˜ค๐˜ต๐˜ฆ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ง๐˜ณ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฎ ๐˜ฎ๐˜ฆ…

๐˜Œ๐˜ท๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜จ๐˜ฉ ๐˜ ๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ฅ ๐˜ญ๐˜ฆ๐˜ง๐˜ต ๐˜ฎ๐˜บ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ธ๐˜ฏ ๐˜ค๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜ฏ๐˜ต๐˜ณ๐˜บ ๐˜ง๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ต ๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ๐˜ข๐˜ด๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ญ๐˜ช๐˜ท๐˜ฆ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ 6 ๐˜ค๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜ฏ๐˜ต๐˜ณ๐˜ช๐˜ฆ๐˜ด ๐˜ข๐˜ง๐˜ต๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ต…

All of that baggage and beliefs…

Came with me everywhere I went…

And it got me sick….

These days when I have a stressful day, a difficult conversation, a challenging time….

I remember the days I couldn’t even get out of bed….

What an amazing gift to live again….

and go through challenges again…

๐™„๐™› ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช ๐™ฌ๐™–๐™ฃ๐™ฉ ๐™ฉ๐™ค ๐™˜๐™๐™–๐™ฃ๐™œ๐™š ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช๐™ง ๐™ก๐™ž๐™›๐™š….

๐˜ฟ๐™ค๐™ฃ’๐™ฉ ๐™œ๐™š๐™ฉ ๐™ช๐™จ๐™š๐™™ ๐™ฉ๐™ค ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช๐™ง ๐™ฅ๐™–๐™ž๐™ฃ…

๐™๐™ค ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช๐™ง ๐™—๐™–๐™œ๐™œ๐™–๐™œ๐™š….

๐™๐™ค ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช๐™ง ๐™ฅ๐™๐™ฎ๐™จ๐™ž๐™˜๐™–๐™ก ๐™จ๐™ฉ๐™–๐™ฉ๐™š (๐™ฎ๐™š๐™จ ๐™›๐™ง๐™ค๐™ข ๐™š๐™ญ๐™ฅ๐™š๐™ง๐™ž๐™š๐™ฃ๐™˜๐™š ๐™„ ๐™˜๐™–๐™ฃ ๐™ฉ๐™–๐™ก๐™  ๐™–๐™—๐™ค๐™ช๐™ฉ ๐™ฉ๐™๐™ž๐™จ ๐™š๐™ญ๐™ฉ๐™š๐™ฃ๐™จ๐™ž๐™ซ๐™š๐™ก๐™ฎ)

๐˜ฟ๐™ค๐™ฃ’๐™ฉ ๐™œ๐™š๐™ฉ ๐™ช๐™จ๐™š๐™™ ๐™ฉ๐™ค ๐™™๐™ค๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™œ ๐™ฌ๐™๐™–๐™ฉ ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช ๐™™๐™ค๐™ฃ’๐™ฉ ๐™ก๐™ค๐™ซ๐™š ๐™š๐™–๐™˜๐™ ๐™™๐™–๐™ฎ (๐™ฉ๐™๐™ž๐™จ ๐™ช๐™ฃ๐™๐™–๐™ฅ๐™ฅ๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™š๐™จ๐™จ ๐™™๐™–๐™ข๐™–๐™œ๐™š๐™จ ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช๐™ง ๐™ฅ๐™๐™ฎ๐™จ๐™ž๐™˜๐™–๐™ก ๐™—๐™ค๐™™๐™ฎ)

Instead

๐™ˆ๐™–๐™ ๐™š ๐™– ๐™™๐™š๐™˜๐™ž๐™จ๐™ž๐™ค๐™ฃ ๐™ฉ๐™ค ๐™˜๐™๐™–๐™ฃ๐™œ๐™š…

๐˜ฝ๐™š ๐™ฌ๐™ž๐™ก๐™ก๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™œ ๐™–๐™ฃ๐™™ ๐™ค๐™ฅ๐™š๐™ฃ ๐™ฉ๐™ค ๐™™๐™ค ๐™ž๐™ฉ…

๐™‚๐™š๐™ฉ ๐™œ๐™ช๐™ž๐™™๐™–๐™ฃ๐™˜๐™š ๐™ฌ๐™๐™š๐™ง๐™š ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช ๐™–๐™ง๐™š ๐™จ๐™ฉ๐™ช๐™˜๐™ …

๐™๐™–๐™ ๐™š ๐™จ๐™ฉ๐™š๐™ฅ๐™จ ๐™š๐™–๐™˜๐™ ๐™™๐™–๐™ฎ ๐™ง๐™š๐™ก๐™š๐™ฃ๐™ฉ๐™ก๐™š๐™จ๐™จ ๐™ฉ๐™ค ๐™œ๐™š๐™ฉ๐™ฉ๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™œ ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช๐™ง ๐™œ๐™ค๐™–๐™ก๐™จ…

๐˜ฝ๐™š๐™˜๐™–๐™ช๐™จ๐™š ๐™ž๐™› ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช ๐™™๐™ค, ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช ๐™’๐™„๐™‡๐™‡ ๐™œ๐™š๐™ฉ ๐™ฉ๐™๐™š ๐™ง๐™š๐™จ๐™ช๐™ก๐™ฉ๐™จ ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช ๐™ฌ๐™–๐™ฃ๐™ฉ….

Not in a million years I would have thought I would be at the best shape in my life after cancer treatment

Not in a million years I thought I would have my own business helping people to change their lives….

It all started with a decision…

A decision to live a life that I wanted….

On my terms…

And a decision to doing the work every day….

Everything that was required to get there and beyond…

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I got cancer because I thought I could do it all…

I thought I knew it all…

I thought I was a good person…

I thought I was an honest person…

I thought I had it all together…

Don’t get me wrong…

I still think I am a good person…

And I am honest too…

But that doesn’t mean that I was immune to cancer…

We don’t automatically get better health because we hold ourselves to the highest standards as a decent human being…

Having it all under control – meaning good packed lunches, dinner organized, clothes washed, half organized house doesn’t guarantee you good health either….

And doing it all is probably the last thing that guarantees you good health…

Because we can’t do it all…

Have you chatted with someone who you thought had it altogether and realized that they didn’t after all?

We are all humans…

We make mistakes…

Sometimes we learn from it…

And when we don’t…

Life presents us with the same challenge in a different form…

until we learn it for real…

But this is a story for another email….

When the doctor confirmed I had Stage 3 Bowel Cancer, I thought to myself:

I worked so hard to be a good person. Why me?

I have kids….

As I started getting the courage to put my hand up and say:

I don’t know it all…

I can’t do it all…

I am a good person but there are a few things I need to work on…

I am honest but I havenโ€™t been honest to myself…๐Ÿคฆ

Things started changing…

Being honesty to ourselves is one of he hardest things we can do…

It is so much easier to hide ourselves in statements that protect us from changing…

When I started to share my story, to help people like the old version of myself…

I realized that the biggest issue was not in the doing but the thinking…

All the time people think they know it all…

they have tried everything…

and nothing works…

and they say to themselves I don’t have time or money to invest on myself…

and they say to themselves nothing is going to change…

Guess what?

Nothing ever changes…

and people get the same results…

But when you are honest to yourself…

things change…

You change….

You become the change…

Don’t make the same mistake as I did…

Don’t hide away from your truth…

Don’t hide away from what you can’t accomplish by yourself…

Don’t hide away from what you need to work on…

Don’t hide away from asking for help…

Be brave…

Show up to yourself…

Be real…

and watch the transformation happens…

The only thing that can promise good health is being honest with yourself…

It is working on yourself daily…

It is being true to yourself…

No magical pills…

Just a daily practice…