4.5 years ago I was diagnosed with Stage 3 Bowel Cancer
Was given a 70% chance of survival IF I did chemo.
To say I was scared and lost is an understatement.
My kids were only 6 and 4 years old๐ข
The thought of not being there for them made me feel hopeless and helpless,
Fragile and vulnerable
Everything I didn’t know how to be๐ฉ
After an emergency surgery I had 12 sessions of chemo to look forward to
The fear gripped in big time but the most important thing I did was to ask myself
๐๐๐๐ฉ ๐๐ค๐ฉ ๐ข๐ ๐๐๐ง๐?
I acknowledged for the first time that my life was a mess๐
I was a mess
My health was a mess
Even though from the outside it looked like “picture perfect”(Happily married with 2 kids and a job that I loved)
I had been pretending for way too long that
๐๐ฝ๐ ๐ฃ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ฉ๐ค ๐๐ ๐จ๐ฉ๐ง๐ค๐ฃ๐ ๐๐ก๐ก ๐ฉ๐๐ ๐ฉ๐๐ข๐
๐๐ฝ๐ ๐๐ค๐ช๐ก๐ ๐๐ค๐ข๐ฅ๐๐ง๐ฉ๐ข๐๐ฃ๐ฉ๐๐ก๐๐จ๐ ๐ข๐ฎ ๐๐ฃ๐๐๐ง ๐๐ฃ๐ ๐ง๐๐จ๐๐ฃ๐ฉ๐ข๐๐ฃ๐ฉ
๐๐ฝ๐๐ฉ๐ง๐๐จ๐จ ๐ฌ๐๐จ๐ฃ’๐ฉ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ฉ๐๐ฃ๐ ๐ข๐ฎ ๐๐๐๐ก๐ฉ๐
๐๐ฝ๐ ๐๐ค๐ช๐ก๐ ๐ ๐๐๐ฅ ๐ฅ๐ช๐จ๐๐๐ฃ๐ ๐ข๐ฎ ๐๐ค๐๐ฎ ๐๐๐๐๐ช๐จ๐ ๐ ๐ฌ๐๐จ ๐๐ฃ๐ซ๐๐ฃ๐๐๐๐ก๐๐คฆ๐ฝโโ๏ธ
I had been numbing my emotions and feeling with binge drinking for 16 years
And not giving my best self to my family (when you are angry, the anger starts spilling out of you whether you like it or not)๐ฌ
The truth hit me hard๐ฅ
The cancer diagnosis seemed simple in the face of how much I needed to change
I could see 2 choices:
๐๐ฝ๐๐ค ๐ฉ๐๐ง๐ค๐ช๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ข๐ค ๐๐ฃ๐ ๐๐ค ๐๐๐๐ ๐ฉ๐ค ๐ข๐ฎ ๐ฃ๐ค๐ง๐ข๐๐ก ๐ก๐๐๐
๐๐ฝ๐พ๐๐ผ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐
Yeap that is right!
๐.๐ฉ.๐.๐ฅ.๐ฌ.๐ง.๐.๐.๐ก.๐
It felt like I needed to learn how to walk again
There was so much work to do
๐๐ฝ๐ฃ๐ต๐๐๐ถ๐ฐ๐ฎ๐น๐น๐
๐๐ฝ๐ ๐ฒ๐ป๐๐ฎ๐น๐น๐
๐๐ฝ๐๐บ๐ผ๐๐ถ๐ผ๐ป๐ฎ๐น๐น๐
๐๐ฝ๐ฃ๐ฟ๐ผ๐ณ๐ฒ๐๐๐ถ๐ผ๐ป๐ฎ๐น๐น๐
I didn’t know where to start so
I started putting one foot in front of the other
Some days literally๐
Taking back control of each part of my life
Fast forward today
๐๐๐๐๐๐พ๐ผ๐๐๐
I feel the healthiest I have ever been and I am 43 years old now
I have more energy than I had in my 20s
I don’t take any medication and have 0 side effects from chemo
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I feel free – holding on to anger and resentment was a big part of my sickness
๐๐๐๐๐ผ๐๐๐
I am conscious and I feel in control (my addiction to stress was another huge part of my sickness
๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ผ๐๐๐
I am living a DREAM that came true –
Something I never thought it was possible
Running my own successful coaching business and having FREEDOM
I wake up to messages from clients telling me they are taking back control of their lives and that they feel empowered
๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ผ๐๐๐
I have been married for 18 years and we are at the happiest stage of our marriage.
My kids are thriving physically, mentally and emotionally.
We just travelled around Australia in a caravan and we felt more connected than ever
๐๐ฎ๐ป๐ฐ๐ฒ๐ฟ ๐ฏ๐น๐ฒ๐๐๐ฒ๐ฑ ๐บ๐ฒ ๐๐ถ๐๐ต ๐ฎ ๐ก๐๐ช ๐๐๐๐
I promised myself I wasn’t going to waste my life anymore
Moaning, Blaming and Complaining
I wasn’t going to live unconsciously anymore
I was going to be conscious about my feelings and emotions
Conscious about what I want
Conscious about who I truly am.
I wasn’t going to give my power to anyone anymore.
I was going to take FULL RESPONSIBILITY of MY LIFE
Sometimes life throws us things that are so big that shakes us to the core and we think
๐๐ค๐ฌ ๐๐๐ฃ ๐ ๐๐๐ฉ ๐ค๐ช๐ฉ ๐ค๐ ๐ฉ๐๐๐จ ๐ค๐ฃ๐?
These days I believe in possibilities
We all have immense power within us to change ourselves and our life
We can ALWAYS take control despite any circumstances
I hope this post inspire you to take the next step from where you are at
Stop comparing your story to anybody else’s story
Everyone starts somewhereโฆ
If I did it, you can do it tooโค๏ธ
