4.5 years ago I was diagnosed with Stage 3 Bowel Cancer

Was given a 70% chance of survival IF I did chemo.

To say I was scared and lost is an understatement.

My kids were only 6 and 4 years old😢

The thought of not being there for them made me feel hopeless and helpless,

Fragile and vulnerable

Everything I didn’t know how to be😩

After an emergency surgery I had 12 sessions of chemo to look forward to

The fear gripped in big time but the most important thing I did was to ask myself

𝙒𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙜𝙤𝙩 𝙢𝙚 𝙝𝙚𝙧𝙚?

I acknowledged for the first time that my life was a mess😔

I was a mess

My health was a mess

Even though from the outside it looked like “picture perfect”(Happily married with 2 kids and a job that I loved)

I had been pretending for way too long that

👉🏽𝙄 𝙣𝙚𝙚𝙙𝙚𝙙 𝙩𝙤 𝙗𝙚 𝙨𝙩𝙧𝙤𝙣𝙜 𝙖𝙡𝙡 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙩𝙞𝙢𝙚

👉🏽𝙄 𝙘𝙤𝙪𝙡𝙙 𝙘𝙤𝙢𝙥𝙖𝙧𝙩𝙢𝙚𝙣𝙩𝙖𝙡𝙞𝙨𝙚 𝙢𝙮 𝙖𝙣𝙜𝙚𝙧 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙧𝙚𝙨𝙚𝙣𝙩𝙢𝙚𝙣𝙩

👉🏽𝙎𝙩𝙧𝙚𝙨𝙨 𝙬𝙖𝙨𝙣’𝙩 𝙖𝙛𝙛𝙚𝙘𝙩𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙢𝙮 𝙝𝙚𝙖𝙡𝙩𝙝

👉🏽𝙄 𝙘𝙤𝙪𝙡𝙙 𝙠𝙚𝙚𝙥 𝙥𝙪𝙨𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙢𝙮 𝙗𝙤𝙙𝙮 𝙗𝙚𝙘𝙖𝙪𝙨𝙚 𝙄 𝙬𝙖𝙨 𝙞𝙣𝙫𝙞𝙣𝙘𝙞𝙗𝙡𝙚🤦🏽‍♀️

I had been numbing my emotions and feeling with binge drinking for 16 years

And not giving my best self to my family (when you are angry, the anger starts spilling out of you whether you like it or not)😬

The truth hit me hard😥

The cancer diagnosis seemed simple in the face of how much I needed to change

I could see 2 choices:

👉🏽𝙜𝙤 𝙩𝙝𝙧𝙤𝙪𝙜𝙝 𝙘𝙝𝙚𝙢𝙤 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙜𝙤 𝙗𝙖𝙘𝙠 𝙩𝙤 𝙢𝙮 𝙣𝙤𝙧𝙢𝙖𝙡 𝙡𝙞𝙛𝙚
👉🏽𝘾𝙃𝘼𝙉𝙂𝙀 𝙀𝙑𝙀𝙍𝙔𝙏𝙃𝙄𝙉𝙂 𝙄𝙉 𝙈𝙔 𝙇𝙄𝙁𝙀

Yeap that is right!

𝗘.𝗩.𝗘.𝗥.𝗬.𝗧.𝗛.𝗜.𝗡.𝗚

It felt like I needed to learn how to walk again

There was so much work to do

👉🏽𝗣𝗵𝘆𝘀𝗶𝗰𝗮𝗹𝗹𝘆
👉🏽𝗠𝗲𝗻𝘁𝗮𝗹𝗹𝘆
👉🏽𝗘𝗺𝗼𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻𝗮𝗹𝗹𝘆
👉🏽𝗣𝗿𝗼𝗳𝗲𝘀𝘀𝗶𝗼𝗻𝗮𝗹𝗹𝘆

I didn’t know where to start so

I started putting one foot in front of the other

Some days literally🙂

Taking back control of each part of my life

Fast forward today

𝙋𝙃𝙔𝙎𝙄𝘾𝘼𝙇𝙇𝙔

I feel the healthiest I have ever been and I am 43 years old now
I have more energy than I had in my 20s
I don’t take any medication and have 0 side effects from chemo

𝙀𝙈𝙊𝙏𝙄𝙊𝙉𝘼𝙇𝙇𝙔

I feel free – holding on to anger and resentment was a big part of my sickness

𝙈𝙀𝙉𝙏𝘼𝙇𝙇𝙔

I am conscious and I feel in control (my addiction to stress was another huge part of my sickness

𝙋𝙍𝙊𝙁𝙀𝙎𝙎𝙄𝙊𝙉𝘼𝙇𝙇𝙔

I am living a DREAM that came true –

Something I never thought it was possible

Running my own successful coaching business and having FREEDOM

I wake up to messages from clients telling me they are taking back control of their lives and that they feel empowered

𝙋𝙀𝙍𝙎𝙊𝙉𝘼𝙇𝙇𝙔
I have been married for 18 years and we are at the happiest stage of our marriage.
My kids are thriving physically, mentally and emotionally.
We just travelled around Australia in a caravan and we felt more connected than ever

𝗖𝗮𝗻𝗰𝗲𝗿 𝗯𝗹𝗲𝘀𝘀𝗲𝗱 𝗺𝗲 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝗮 𝗡𝗘𝗪 𝗟𝗜𝗙𝗘

I promised myself I wasn’t going to waste my life anymore

Moaning, Blaming and Complaining

I wasn’t going to live unconsciously anymore

I was going to be conscious about my feelings and emotions

Conscious about what I want

Conscious about who I truly am.

I wasn’t going to give my power to anyone anymore.

I was going to take FULL RESPONSIBILITY of MY LIFE

Sometimes life throws us things that are so big that shakes us to the core and we think

𝙃𝙤𝙬 𝙘𝙖𝙣 𝙄 𝙜𝙚𝙩 𝙤𝙪𝙩 𝙤𝙛 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙨 𝙤𝙣𝙚?

These days I believe in possibilities

We all have immense power within us to change ourselves and our life

We can ALWAYS take control despite any circumstances

I hope this post inspire you to take the next step from where you are at

Stop comparing your story to anybody else’s story

Everyone starts somewhere…

If I did it, you can do it too❤️