After a cancer diagnosis, it is hard not to cry…if you are a strong person you might not cry straight after you get told you have cancer but when the reality sinks in….the tears are going to come.
When I was told I had cancer, it was after my bowel surgery so I was groggy…coming to terms of being alive after an emergency surgery…feeling lost without my kids so I don’t remember crying as such.
What I do remember is a particular day…a few days after I went home from hospital after my surgery. It was a defining day on my journey…
My husband took the kids out to the beach and I stayed at home by myself…recovering.
I spent the whole day crying…sobbing if I remember well.
I cried about my diagnosis…I cried because I could feel all the sadness inside me, how much I felt disconnected to my body and my inner self….
I cried because I didn’t see cancer coming…I didn’t see it creeping up on me.
I cried for what I had yet to face….
I cried for everything I had been holding on to…everything that didn’t serve my body and mind.
This particular day was the day I felt in myself I was ready to face what was in front of me.
I was able to gather all my strength together so I could be strong for me…for my kids… for my husband…. and for everyone who loved me.
So crying is ok…it is sometimes necessary…
I am not sure when our society has become a non-crying one…I am not sure when our society has seen crying as a weakness.
Crying is human and it is needed so we can express our feelings…so we can release our emotions.
So if today you need to have a cry, I would say go for it.
Don’t hold back…this is part of being human…it is part of the healing journey.