I started meditating during chemotherapy.
Life was chaos…๐ฉ
My thoughts were always racing…
I was so desperate to run away from my own reality like I had always done but this time I couldn’t…๐ฌ
I had to stay put…
and sit with that diagnosis, chemo, going to doctors everyday…
I had to sit with fear…
and with myself…๐
All I could think about was…
๐๐๐๐ฉ ๐๐๐ฃ ๐ ๐๐ค ๐ฉ๐ค ๐๐ข๐ฅ๐ง๐ค๐ซ๐ ๐ข๐ฎ ๐๐๐๐ฃ๐๐๐จ ๐ค๐ ๐จ๐ช๐ง๐ซ๐๐ซ๐๐ก?
๐ ๐ฃ๐๐๐ ๐ฉ๐ค ๐จ๐ช๐ง๐ซ๐๐ซ๐ ๐๐ค๐ง ๐ข๐ฎ ๐ ๐๐๐จ…
Meditation was one of the things I took on…
It felt so pointless at the beginning…๐ฅ
My thoughts were so crazy…
But I am stubborn as hell so I stuck to it…
Day in day out
Starting with 5-10 minutes
Then to 20 minutes
After one year of meditating daily, I went on holidays to Europe for one month.
I was determined to exercise daily as this was also part of my plan to stay alive…
I thought to myself…
If I can’t meditate in that month, I will pick it up when I get back.
I spend a whole month not meditating and I started to feel how meditation had changed me
Sometimes it takes you to loose something for you to value it
๐๐บ ๐ข๐ฃ๐ช๐ญ๐ช๐ต๐บ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฃ๐ณ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ฎ๐บ ๐ข๐ต๐ต๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ต๐ช๐ฐ๐ฏ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ฑ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ด๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ต ๐ฎ๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ต ๐ญ๐ฆ๐ด๐ด๐ฆ๐ฏ ๐ช๐ฏ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ฎ๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ต๐ฉ
๐ ๐ด๐ต๐ข๐ณ๐ต๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐จ๐ฆ๐ต๐ต๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ฃ๐ข๐ค๐ฌ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฃ๐ฆ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ฎ๐ฐ๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ช๐ฎ๐ฑ๐ข๐ต๐ช๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ต ๐ธ๐ช๐ต๐ฉ ๐ฎ๐บ ๐ฌ๐ช๐ฅ๐ด ๐ง๐ฐ๐ณ ๐ญ๐ช๐ต๐ต๐ญ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ๐ด
๐ ๐ง๐ฆ๐ญ๐ต ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ด๐ต๐ณ๐ฆ๐ด๐ด๐ฆ๐ด ๐ฐ๐ง ๐ญ๐ช๐ง๐ฆ ๐จ๐ฆ๐ต๐ต๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ฐ๐ฏ ๐ต๐ฐ๐ฑ ๐ฐ๐ง ๐ฎ๐ฆ
In that month I understood how important was for me to meditate.
Needless to say, I came back from holidays and I have meditate daily since then (3 years on)
If you haven’t tried meditation or you may think you are not a meditator…(because I can tell you I am still not one)
๐๐ผLet go of the expectations of what you should do or be while meditating
๐๐ผThink as meditation as a time that you just quieten your mind (softer approach)
๐๐ผKeep at it as like anything you only get results when you are consistent
PS: I am a using a Muse device here which is a great help when you are starting.
If you don’t know what a muse is, it is a device that helps you with your meditation practice as it gives you real-time feedback on your mind and body.
It measures your brain waves and heart beat and gives you real feedback to empower you to manage your response on your meditation practice.
