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How to START ALL OVER again AFTER FAILING?

๐—ฆ๐—ผ๐—บ๐—ฒ๐˜๐—ถ๐—บ๐—ฒ๐˜€ ๐˜†๐—ผ๐˜‚ ๐—ต๐—ฎ๐˜ƒ๐—ฒ ๐˜๐—ผ ๐—ฆ๐—ง๐—”๐—ฅ๐—ง ๐—”๐—Ÿ๐—Ÿ ๐—ข๐—ฉ๐—˜๐—ฅ ๐—ฒ๐˜ƒ๐—ฒ๐—ป ๐˜„๐—ต๐—ฒ๐—ป ๐˜†๐—ผ๐˜‚ ๐—ต๐—ฎ๐˜ƒ๐—ฒ ๐˜๐—ฟ๐—ถ๐—ฒ๐—ฑ ๐—›๐—”๐—ฅ๐——

When I had my first child I was adamant to breastfeed him

He was born a big baby โ€“ almost a 10 pounds baby โ€“ 4.2 KG

I had a C-Section and I knew that the whole breastfeeding after a C-section wasnโ€™t going to be so straight forward

But I thought babies were born knowing how to breastfeed๐Ÿค”

In 2 days my nipples were bleeding

I left the hospital and kept persisting but things didnโ€™t get any better

My baby was losing weight and

He screamed from 6 pm to 1 am every day which was exhausting, draining and to be honest it was driving my husband and I crazyโ€ฆ

Every time it was time to breastfeed him,

I would bite my lip because it was incredibly painfulโ€ฆ๐Ÿ˜ฅ

At about 6 weeks I went to see a lactation consultant

Yes I could have reached out for help sooner

(But I am stubborn and I thought I knew best)๐Ÿ˜ฌ

When the lactation consultant saw me breastfeeding my sonโ€ฆ

She told me:

โ€œ๐˜–๐˜ฉ ๐˜ฅ๐˜ข๐˜ณ๐˜ญ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ, ๐˜ช๐˜ด ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ช๐˜ด ๐˜ธ๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ต ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ๐˜บ ๐˜ด๐˜ฉ๐˜ฐ๐˜ธ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฅ ๐˜บ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ ๐˜ฅ๐˜ฐ ๐˜ข๐˜ต ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ฉ๐˜ฐ๐˜ด๐˜ฑ๐˜ช๐˜ต๐˜ข๐˜ญ?โ€

I was doing everything wrongโ€ฆ

I spent 6 weeks doing what I thought it was my best

But it was all wrongโ€ฆ

My nipples were bleedingโ€ฆ

My baby didnโ€™t sleep..

And he was probably hungry…

I remember getting in the car with my husbandโ€™s dad and his wife who were here visiting and sayingโ€ฆ

“๐™„ ๐™–๐™ข ๐™™๐™ค๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™œ ๐™ž๐™ฉ ๐™–๐™ก๐™ก ๐™ฌ๐™ง๐™ค๐™ฃ๐™œ”

I felt like a failureโ€ฆ

So I dusted my pride offโ€ฆ

I pull myself togetherโ€ฆ

Bought myself a โ€œnipple shieldโ€ and started all over againโ€ฆ

It took about 3 weeks for my nipples to healโ€ฆ

I breastfed my son for 1.5 years

It was one of the most special times for me as a mum

But the lesson here isโ€ฆ

๐—ช๐—ต๐—ฒ๐—ป ๐˜„๐—ฒ ๐—ณ๐—ฎ๐—ถ๐—นโ€ฆ

๐—ช๐—ฒ ๐—ด๐—ฒ๐˜ ๐—ฏ๐—ฎ๐—ฐ๐—ธ ๐—ฎ๐—ด๐—ฎ๐—ถ๐—ปโ€ฆ

๐—ช๐—ฒ ๐˜€๐˜๐—ฎ๐—ฟ๐˜ ๐—ฎ๐—น๐—น ๐—ผ๐˜ƒ๐—ฒ๐—ฟโ€ฆ

๐—”๐—ป๐—ฑ ๐˜„๐—ฒ ๐—ด๐—ฒ๐˜ ๐—ฏ๐—ฎ๐—ฐ๐—ธ ๐—ผ๐—ป ๐˜๐—ต๐—ฒ ๐—ฟ๐—ถ๐—ด๐—ต๐˜ ๐—ฝ๐—ฎ๐˜๐—ตโ€ฆ

๐—ก๐—ฒ๐˜ƒ๐—ฒ๐—ฟ ๐—ณ๐—ฒ๐—ฒ๐—น ๐—ฏ๐—ฎ๐—ฑ ๐˜๐—ผ ๐—ฆ๐—ง๐—”๐—ฅ๐—ง ๐—”๐—Ÿ๐—Ÿ ๐—ข๐—ฉ๐—˜๐—ฅ

๐—ผ๐—ฟ ๐—™๐—”๐—œ๐—Ÿ๐—œ๐—ก๐—š

๐—œ๐˜ ๐—ถ๐˜€ ๐—ฎ๐—น๐—น ๐—ฝ๐—ฎ๐—ฟ๐˜ ๐—ผ๐—ณ ๐˜๐—ต๐—ฒ ๐—ฝ๐—ฟ๐—ผ๐—ฐ๐—ฒ๐˜€๐˜€๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿผ

PS: By the way, when he grows up I am pretty sure nobody is going to ask him: have you been breastfed?๐Ÿ˜‚

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