๐ผ๐ง๐ ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช ๐๐๐๐ก๐๐ฃ๐ ๐๐ญ๐๐๐ช๐จ๐ฉ๐๐?
๐๐๐ซ๐ ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช ๐๐๐๐ฃ ๐๐ง๐๐๐๐๐ฃ๐ ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช๐ง๐จ๐๐ก๐ ๐ค๐ช๐ฉ ๐ค๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ข๐ค๐ง๐ฃ๐๐ฃ๐?
๐๐๐๐ก๐๐ฃ๐ ๐ก๐๐ ๐ ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช ๐๐ง๐ ๐ง๐ช๐ฃ๐ฃ๐๐ฃ๐ ๐ค๐ฃ ๐ง๐๐จ๐๐ง๐ซ๐?
๐ผ๐ก๐ง๐๐๐๐ฎ ๐๐๐๐ก๐๐ฃ๐ ๐ฌ๐๐ฉ๐ ๐ฅ๐๐ฎ๐จ๐๐๐๐ก ๐๐๐จ๐๐ค๐ข๐๐ค๐ง๐ฉ๐จ ๐๐ฃ ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช๐ง ๐๐ค๐๐ฎ?
Yes I have been there…
Man…I remember when I used to wake up before my cancer diagnosis…
Already on flight and fight mode…
Thinking ” Here we go again”๐ฉ
Is that candidate going to accept that job?
Is that client going to come back to me today?
Have the kids got their costume for the school event day today?
Shit I am late…
Shit I need to get to work…
and the race started…
No time to eat…
Sometimes I would cycle to work…
8 km on an empty stomach exhausted growing a cancer inside me๐
Only a badass can do that๐
or maybe a dumbass๐
Joke aside…I should say…
Only someone who doesn’t put her needs first can do that…
Only someone who is so disconnected to her body can do that…
Only someone who doesn’t take responsibility for her own life can do that…
Only someone who has been lost for way too long can do that…
yes that was me๐๐ผโโ๏ธ
It is crazy how much I pushed myself…
And it is even more crazy to think I thought I wouldn’t suffer any consequences…
I was playing the lottery each day with my life…
Wasting my life away…
With too much stress…
too much anger…
resentment…
too much worry…
Until I hit a wall…
“๐๐ง๐ ๐๐ฅ๐ข๐๐ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ก๐๐ฏ๐ ๐ฌ๐ญ๐๐ ๐ ๐ ๐๐จ๐ฐ๐๐ฅ ๐๐๐ง๐๐๐ซ ๐๐ง๐ ๐ฆ๐จ๐ฌ๐ญ ๐ฅ๐ข๐ค๐๐ฅ๐ฒ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ฐ๐ข๐ฅ๐ฅ ๐ง๐๐๐ ๐ ๐ฆ๐จ๐ง๐ญ๐ก๐ฌ ๐จ๐ ๐๐ก๐๐ฆ๐จ๐ญ๐ก๐๐ซ๐๐ฉ๐ฒ…
๐๐๐ข๐ญ, ๐ฐ๐ก๐๐ญ?
๐๐ซ๐ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ฌ๐๐ซ๐ข๐จ๐ฎ๐ฌ?
๐๐ง๐ฒ ๐๐ก๐๐ง๐๐ ๐ญ๐ก๐ข๐ฌ ๐ข๐ฌ ๐ ๐๐๐ง๐ข๐ ๐ง ๐ญ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐จ๐ฎ๐ซ…
๐๐จ ๐ฌ๐จ๐ซ๐ซ๐ฒ, ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐ ๐จ๐จ๐ ๐ง๐๐ฐ๐ฌ ๐ข๐ฌ ๐ ๐ก๐๐ ๐ ๐ ๐จ๐จ๐ ๐ฅ๐จ๐จ๐ค ๐๐ซ๐จ๐ฎ๐ง๐ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ๐ซ ๐จ๐ซ๐ ๐๐ง๐ฌ ๐๐ง๐ ๐๐ฏ๐๐ซ๐ฒ๐ญ๐ก๐ข๐ง๐ ๐ฅ๐จ๐จ๐ค๐ฌ ๐ซ๐๐๐ฅ๐ฅ๐ฒ ๐ ๐จ๐จ๐…”
The amazing doctor who saved my life and peformed the most perfect emergency surgery ever…
Took the tumour out, rejoined my bowel perfectly (without needing to attach a poo bag in my belly)
Left me with that piece of news…๐ฅ
That changed my entire life…
I started my healing from where I was…
My physical body needed emergency attention…
And tackling my emotional state from a place of exhaustion would have been futile…
As I started my journey from recovering from the emergency surgery I had to go through…
to starting the chemo treatment…
Food became my medicine…๐
I developed a different relationship with food…
From chemo session to chemo session my body kept coming back up…
I changed my diet slowly as I took my kids and husband in the journey with me…
I am proud to say that I was able to finished 12 sessions of chemo feeling stronger than I started…
My kids and husband eat the same diet as I do…๐๐ผ
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