๐˜ผ๐™ง๐™š ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช ๐™›๐™š๐™š๐™ก๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™œ ๐™š๐™ญ๐™๐™–๐™ช๐™จ๐™ฉ๐™š๐™™?

๐™ƒ๐™–๐™ซ๐™š ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช ๐™—๐™š๐™š๐™ฃ ๐™™๐™ง๐™–๐™œ๐™œ๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™œ ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช๐™ง๐™จ๐™š๐™ก๐™› ๐™ค๐™ช๐™ฉ ๐™ค๐™› ๐™—๐™š๐™™ ๐™š๐™–๐™˜๐™ ๐™ข๐™ค๐™ง๐™ฃ๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™œ?

๐™๐™š๐™š๐™ก๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™œ ๐™ก๐™ž๐™ ๐™š ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช ๐™–๐™ง๐™š ๐™ง๐™ช๐™ฃ๐™ฃ๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™œ ๐™ค๐™ฃ ๐™ง๐™š๐™จ๐™š๐™ง๐™ซ๐™š?

๐˜ผ๐™ก๐™ง๐™š๐™–๐™™๐™ฎ ๐™™๐™š๐™–๐™ก๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™œ ๐™ฌ๐™ž๐™ฉ๐™ ๐™ฅ๐™๐™ฎ๐™จ๐™ž๐™˜๐™–๐™ก ๐™™๐™ž๐™จ๐™˜๐™ค๐™ข๐™›๐™ค๐™ง๐™ฉ๐™จ ๐™ž๐™ฃ ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช๐™ง ๐™—๐™ค๐™™๐™ฎ?

Yes I have been there…

Man…I remember when I used to wake up before my cancer diagnosis…

Already on flight and fight mode…

Thinking ” Here we go again”๐Ÿ˜ฉ

Is that candidate going to accept that job?

Is that client going to come back to me today?

Have the kids got their costume for the school event day today?

Shit I am late…

Shit I need to get to work…

and the race started…

No time to eat…

Sometimes I would cycle to work…

8 km on an empty stomach exhausted growing a cancer inside me๐Ÿ˜‰

Only a badass can do that๐Ÿ˜‚

or maybe a dumbass๐Ÿ˜œ

Joke aside…I should say…

Only someone who doesn’t put her needs first can do that…

Only someone who is so disconnected to her body can do that…

Only someone who doesn’t take responsibility for her own life can do that…

Only someone who has been lost for way too long can do that…

yes that was me๐Ÿ™‹๐Ÿผโ€โ™€๏ธ

It is crazy how much I pushed myself…

And it is even more crazy to think I thought I wouldn’t suffer any consequences…

I was playing the lottery each day with my life…

Wasting my life away…

With too much stress…

too much anger…

resentment…

too much worry…

Until I hit a wall…

“๐€๐ง๐ ๐ž๐ฅ๐ข๐œ๐š ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ก๐š๐ฏ๐ž ๐ฌ๐ญ๐š๐ ๐ž ๐Ÿ‘ ๐๐จ๐ฐ๐ž๐ฅ ๐œ๐š๐ง๐œ๐ž๐ซ ๐š๐ง๐ ๐ฆ๐จ๐ฌ๐ญ ๐ฅ๐ข๐ค๐ž๐ฅ๐ฒ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ฐ๐ข๐ฅ๐ฅ ๐ง๐ž๐ž๐ ๐Ÿ” ๐ฆ๐จ๐ง๐ญ๐ก๐ฌ ๐จ๐Ÿ ๐œ๐ก๐ž๐ฆ๐จ๐ญ๐ก๐ž๐ซ๐š๐ฉ๐ฒ…

๐–๐š๐ข๐ญ, ๐ฐ๐ก๐š๐ญ?

๐€๐ซ๐ž ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ฌ๐ž๐ซ๐ข๐จ๐ฎ๐ฌ?

๐€๐ง๐ฒ ๐œ๐ก๐š๐ง๐œ๐ž ๐ญ๐ก๐ข๐ฌ ๐ข๐ฌ ๐š ๐›๐ž๐ง๐ข๐ ๐ง ๐ญ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐จ๐ฎ๐ซ…

๐๐จ ๐ฌ๐จ๐ซ๐ซ๐ฒ, ๐ญ๐ก๐ž ๐ ๐จ๐จ๐ ๐ง๐ž๐ฐ๐ฌ ๐ข๐ฌ ๐ˆ ๐ก๐š๐ ๐š ๐ ๐จ๐จ๐ ๐ฅ๐จ๐จ๐ค ๐š๐ซ๐จ๐ฎ๐ง๐ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ๐ซ ๐จ๐ซ๐ ๐š๐ง๐ฌ ๐š๐ง๐ ๐ž๐ฏ๐ž๐ซ๐ฒ๐ญ๐ก๐ข๐ง๐  ๐ฅ๐จ๐จ๐ค๐ฌ ๐ซ๐ž๐š๐ฅ๐ฅ๐ฒ ๐ ๐จ๐จ๐…”

The amazing doctor who saved my life and peformed the most perfect emergency surgery ever…

Took the tumour out, rejoined my bowel perfectly (without needing to attach a poo bag in my belly)

Left me with that piece of news…๐Ÿ˜ฅ

That changed my entire life…

I started my healing from where I was…

My physical body needed emergency attention…

And tackling my emotional state from a place of exhaustion would have been futile…

As I started my journey from recovering from the emergency surgery I had to go through…

to starting the chemo treatment…

Food became my medicine…๐Ÿ˜‹

I developed a different relationship with food…

From chemo session to chemo session my body kept coming back up…

I changed my diet slowly as I took my kids and husband in the journey with me…

I am proud to say that I was able to finished 12 sessions of chemo feeling stronger than I started…

My kids and husband eat the same diet as I do…๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿผ

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