𝙈𝙮 ‘𝙨𝙞𝙘𝙠’ 𝙥𝙖𝙩𝙩𝙚𝙧𝙣𝙨 𝙬𝙚𝙧𝙚 𝙜𝙚𝙩𝙩𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙥𝙖𝙨𝙨𝙚𝙙 𝙩𝙤 𝙢𝙮 𝙠𝙞𝙙𝙨

𝘼𝙣𝙙 𝙗𝙚𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙝𝙤𝙣𝙚𝙨𝙩 𝙖𝙗𝙤𝙪𝙩 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙬𝙖𝙨𝙣’𝙩 𝙚𝙖𝙨𝙮…😢

My children saw me crying for the first time after my emergency surgery

My daughter who was 4 at the time asked me:

“𝙒𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙞𝙨 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙬𝙖𝙩𝙚𝙧 𝙞𝙣 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙚𝙮𝙚𝙨?”

𝙄 𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙡𝙞𝙨𝙚𝙙 𝙄 𝙬𝙖𝙨 𝙩𝙚𝙖𝙘𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙢𝙮 𝙠𝙞𝙙𝙨 𝙩𝙤 𝙨𝙪𝙥𝙧𝙚𝙨𝙨 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙞𝙧 𝙚𝙢𝙤𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙨

To never honour their feelings

To being strong all the time regardless of what you are going through

We all know this is a lie because it is impossible

And can get us in big trouble

Because when we suppress our emotions, we can get sick😔

𝙄 𝙖𝙡𝙨𝙤 𝙣𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧 𝙨𝙖𝙞𝙙 𝙨𝙤𝙧𝙧𝙮 𝙩𝙤 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙢 𝙖𝙩 𝙖𝙡𝙡

Even when I was wrong

I started to saying sorry to them which as hard for me at the beginning

I realised I was teaching my kids the illusion of a perfectionist

A sick title we put on ourselves when we believe we never make a mistake🤦🏽‍♀️

𝙄 𝙙𝙚𝙖𝙡𝙩 𝙬𝙞𝙩𝙝 𝙨𝙩𝙧𝙚𝙨𝙨 𝙗𝙮 𝙗𝙚𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙜𝙧𝙪𝙢𝙥𝙮 𝙖𝙡𝙡 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙩𝙞𝙢𝙚

I realised I was teaching my kids this is how you deal with life

I realised that I inherited my patterns by watching my parents

And my kids were going to down the same path by watching me

I needed to change if I wanted them to change

𝙏𝙝𝙞𝙨 𝙬𝙚𝙚𝙠 𝙝𝙖𝙨 𝙗𝙚𝙚𝙣 𝙖 𝙥𝙧𝙤𝙤𝙛 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙬𝙤𝙧𝙠 𝙄 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙗𝙚𝙚𝙣 𝙙𝙤𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙝𝙖𝙨 𝙗𝙚𝙚𝙣 𝙧𝙚𝙛𝙡𝙚𝙘𝙩𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙤𝙣 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙠𝙞𝙙𝙨

𝙒𝙚 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙬𝙤𝙧𝙠𝙚𝙙 𝙖𝙨 𝙖 𝙩𝙚𝙖𝙢 𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙣 𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙪𝙜𝙝 𝙬𝙚 𝙬𝙚𝙧𝙚 𝙛𝙖𝙘𝙚𝙙 𝙬𝙞𝙩𝙝 𝙢𝙖𝙣𝙮 𝙘𝙝𝙖𝙡𝙡𝙚𝙣𝙜𝙚𝙨

𝙏𝙝𝙚 𝙠𝙞𝙙𝙨 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙪𝙜𝙝𝙩 𝙖𝙗𝙤𝙪𝙩 𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧𝙮𝙤𝙣𝙚 𝙞𝙣𝙨𝙩𝙚𝙖𝙙 𝙤𝙛 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙠𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙖𝙗𝙤𝙪𝙩 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙢𝙨𝙚𝙡𝙫𝙚𝙨 𝙤𝙣𝙡𝙮

𝙏𝙝𝙚 𝙠𝙞𝙙𝙨 𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙝𝙚𝙡𝙥𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙤𝙪𝙩 𝙖 𝙡𝙤𝙩 𝙢𝙤𝙧𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙣 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙮 𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧 𝙙𝙞𝙙

𝙏𝙝𝙚 𝙠𝙞𝙙𝙨 𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙙𝙚𝙖𝙡𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙬𝙞𝙩𝙝 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙞𝙧 𝙤𝙬𝙣 𝙛𝙧𝙪𝙨𝙩𝙧𝙖𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙨 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙘𝙤𝙢𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙗𝙖𝙘𝙠 𝙛𝙧𝙤𝙢 𝙮𝙚𝙩 𝙦𝙪𝙞𝙘𝙠𝙚𝙧 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙦𝙪𝙞𝙘𝙠𝙚𝙧

𝙄 𝙖𝙢 𝙫𝙚𝙧𝙮 𝙥𝙧𝙤𝙪𝙙 𝙢𝙤𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙧!💕

“𝘾𝙝𝙞𝙡𝙙𝙧𝙚𝙣 𝙬𝙞𝙡𝙡 𝙧𝙖𝙧𝙚𝙡𝙮 𝙨𝙪𝙘𝙘𝙚𝙚𝙙 𝙖𝙩 𝙡𝙞𝙨𝙩𝙚𝙣𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙩𝙤 𝙮𝙤𝙪, 𝙗𝙪𝙩 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙮 𝙬𝙞𝙡𝙡 𝙞𝙣𝙫𝙖𝙧𝙞𝙖𝙗𝙡𝙮 𝙨𝙪𝙘𝙘𝙚𝙚𝙙 𝙖𝙩 𝙗𝙚𝙘𝙤𝙢𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙮𝙤𝙪.”

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