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“Be the change that you wish to see in the world”

๐™’๐™๐™š๐™ฃ ๐™„ ๐™จ๐™ฉ๐™–๐™ง๐™ฉ๐™š๐™™ ๐™›๐™ค๐™˜๐™ช๐™จ ๐™ค๐™ฃ ๐™ข๐™ฎ๐™จ๐™š๐™ก๐™›, ๐™ข๐™ฎ ๐™ง๐™š๐™ก๐™–๐™ฉ๐™ž๐™ค๐™ฃ๐™จ๐™๐™ž๐™ฅ ๐™ฌ๐™ž๐™ฉ๐™ ๐™ข๐™ฎ ๐™๐™ช๐™จ๐™—๐™–๐™ฃ๐™™ ๐™œ๐™ค๐™ฉ ๐™ข๐™ช๐™˜๐™ ๐™—๐™š๐™ฉ๐™ฉ๐™š๐™ง…

๐™’๐™๐™š๐™ฃ ๐™๐™š ๐™จ๐™ฉ๐™–๐™ง๐™ฉ๐™š๐™™ ๐™ฉ๐™ค ๐™›๐™ค๐™˜๐™ช๐™จ ๐™ค๐™ฃ ๐™๐™ž๐™ข, ๐™ค๐™ช๐™ง ๐™ง๐™š๐™ก๐™–๐™ฉ๐™ž๐™ค๐™ฃ๐™จ๐™๐™ž๐™ฅ ๐™œ๐™ค๐™ฉ ๐™—๐™š๐™ฉ๐™ฉ๐™š๐™ง….

Nick and I have been together for 18 years…

He is my jackpot…โค

My lottery ticket…๐Ÿ˜

The best thing that has ever happened in my life…

We met in a hostel in Budapest and our story is romantic…

It was love at first sight…

But we had our moments….

If you add 2 small children in the mix, you know what I am talking about…

It leaves you without much to give to each other….

Especially because we always lived away from family…

After my cancer diagnosis, Nick had to look after me, the kids, his business and everything…

But at the end of it all, it was hard on him after 7.5 months of having to be everything to everyone…

But truth is I didn’t have much to give back to him as my treatment had just finished….๐Ÿ˜ฟ

And I was just about to keep my head above the water…

So I kept focusing on my healing…

And he started to focus on himself…

The more we focused on ourselves separately, the stronger we got together…

I found that the ripple effect of focusing on myself was huge in all areas of my life…

I believe that you need to become the change you want to see in people and in the world.

As Mahatma Ghandi would say:

“Be the change that you wish to see in the world” โ€“ Mahatma Ghandi.

You need to love yourself first before you allow yourself to be loved…

As Nick and I learned how to love ourselves for real, we became more fulfilled within ourselves and consequently happier together…

I became super passionate about helping people to heal themselves because I see the power in each and everyone of us when we are committed to changing…

And healing ourselves…

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I had a terrible habit to blameโ€ฆ.

Blame other peopleโ€ฆ

Blame my circumstancesโ€ฆ.

Blame my โ€œbad luckโ€

Blame the person who is driving slowly in front of me when I am late

Blame the car park that was too tight because I am such a bad driver to park the carโ€ฆ

Ya know how it goes right?

You have a habit to blame and you blame everythingโ€ฆ

It is easyโ€ฆ

It makes you feel you are rightโ€ฆ.

And the world is wrongโ€ฆ

But when I made a decision to take full responsibility of my lifeโ€ฆ

I had to undo the โ€œblamingโ€ habitโ€ฆ

And in every situation I started asking myself questions like:

โ€œWhat can I learn here?โ€

โ€œIs this happening with me because I need to see something that I couldnโ€™t see?โ€

Taking responsibility is a little more challengingโ€ฆ

It requires practiceโ€ฆ.

It requires discipline and persistenceโ€ฆ

These are the main lessons I learned when I start taking full responsibility of my life

Taking responsibility empowers you even when it hurtsโ€ฆ

Blaming leaves your powerlessโ€ฆ

When you take responsibility, you can change anything in your life because you are in controlโ€ฆ

Blaming makes you feel you canโ€™t change anythingโ€ฆ

Taking responsibility is a practice that gives you energyโ€ฆ

Blaming is a practice that drains your energyโ€ฆ

Taking responsibility of where you are at and who you are is an important step towards changing your life but again it is a practice and habit.

โ€œAccept responsibility for your life. Know that it is you who will get where you want to go. No one elseโ€ Les Brown

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โ€œ๐—ง๐—ต๐—ฒ ๐—ด๐—ฟ๐—ฒ๐—ฎ๐˜๐—ฒ๐˜€๐˜ ๐˜๐—ต๐—ฟ๐—ฒ๐—ฎ๐˜ ๐˜๐—ผ ๐˜€๐˜‚๐—ฐ๐—ฐ๐—ฒ๐˜€๐˜€ ๐—ถ๐˜€ ๐—ป๐—ผ๐˜ ๐—ณ๐—ฎ๐—ถ๐—น๐˜‚๐—ฟ๐—ฒ ๐—ฏ๐˜‚๐˜ ๐—ฏ๐—ผ๐—ฟ๐—ฒ๐—ฑ๐—ผ๐—บโ€

I have always been spontaneous as a person and I hate doing the same thing over and over againโ€ฆ.

But when it came to changing my life, I knew I couldnโ€™t do whatever I felt like itโ€ฆ

I needed to keep putting one foot in front of the otherโ€ฆ

I needed to keep progressingโ€ฆ

If I didnโ€™t want to end up like the doctorโ€™s prognosis:

โ€œDuring chemo you will feel tired so do what you canโ€ฆ

During chemo you will feel sick so eat what you canโ€ฆ.โ€

I was told over and over againโ€ฆ

That mentality wasnโ€™t going to get me the results I wantedโ€ฆ

There were so many horrendous stories I could have hanged on toโ€ฆ

There were so many things I could have acceptedโ€ฆ.

But insteadโ€ฆ

I thought to myselfโ€ฆ

I am going to carve my own pathโ€ฆ

๐™Ž๐™ค ๐™„ ๐™ ๐™š๐™š๐™ฅ ๐™จ๐™๐™ค๐™ฌ๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™œ ๐™ช๐™ฅ ๐™š๐™ซ๐™š๐™ง๐™ฎ ๐™จ๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™œ๐™ก๐™š ๐™™๐™–๐™ฎ ๐™ฌ๐™ž๐™ฉ๐™ ๐™ฌ๐™๐™–๐™ฉ ๐™„ ๐™๐™–๐™™โ€ฆ

Sometimes I had enough energy to walk around the blockโ€ฆ.

Other days I had energy to ride my bike for 1 hour, do my weights training etcโ€ฆ

Sometimes I couldnโ€™t even prepare my own foodโ€ฆ

Other days I could help my husband with things around the houseโ€ฆ

It would have been so easy to give upโ€ฆ

I felt so sick 24/7โ€ฆ

It would have been so easy to skip a dayโ€ฆ

๐—•๐˜‚๐˜ ๐—œ ๐—ต๐—ฎ๐—ฑ ๐—ฎ ๐—ณ๐—ฒ๐—ฒ๐—น๐—ถ๐—ป๐—ด ๐˜๐—ต๐—ฎ๐˜ ๐˜€๐—ต๐—ผ๐˜„๐—ถ๐—ป๐—ด ๐˜‚๐—ฝ ๐˜๐—ผ ๐—บ๐˜†๐˜€๐—ฒ๐—น๐—ณ ๐—ฒ๐—ฎ๐—ฐ๐—ต ๐—ฑ๐—ฎ๐˜† ๐˜„๐—ฎ๐˜€ ๐—ฏ๐˜‚๐—ถ๐—น๐—ฑ๐—ถ๐—ป๐—ด ๐—ฎ ๐˜€๐˜๐—ฟ๐—ผ๐—ป๐—ด๐—ฒ๐—ฟ ๐—บ๐—ฒโ€ฆ

๐—œ๐˜ ๐˜„๐—ฎ๐˜€ ๐˜๐—ต๐—ฒ ๐˜„๐—ผ๐—ฟ๐—ธ ๐—š๐—ผ๐—ฑ ๐˜„๐—ฎ๐—ป๐˜๐—ฒ๐—ฑ ๐—บ๐—ฒ ๐˜๐—ผ ๐—ฑ๐—ผ…

๐—œ ๐—ต๐—ฎ๐—ฑ ๐—ฎ ๐—ณ๐—ฒ๐—ฒ๐—น๐—ถ๐—ป๐—ด ๐˜๐—ต๐—ฎ๐˜ ๐˜€๐—ต๐—ผ๐˜„๐—ถ๐—ป๐—ด ๐˜‚๐—ฝ ๐˜๐—ผ ๐—บ๐˜†๐˜€๐—ฒ๐—น๐—ณ ๐—ฒ๐˜ƒ๐—ฒ๐—ฟ๐˜†๐—ฑ๐—ฎ๐˜† ๐˜„๐—ฎ๐˜€ ๐—ฎ๐—น๐—น ๐—œ ๐—ต๐—ฎ๐—ฑ ๐˜๐—ผ๐—ผ…

๐—”๐—ป๐—ฑ ๐—œ ๐—ป๐—ฒ๐—ฒ๐—ฑ๐—ฒ๐—ฑ ๐˜๐—ต๐—ฎ๐˜…

๐—ง๐—ต๐—ฎ๐˜ ๐˜„๐—ฎ๐˜€ ๐—ฝ๐—ฎ๐—ฟ๐˜ ๐—ผ๐—ณ ๐—น๐—ฒ๐˜๐˜๐—ถ๐—ป๐—ด ๐—ด๐—ผ ๐˜๐—ต๐—ฒ ๐—ฐ๐—ผ๐—ป๐˜๐—ฟ๐—ผ๐—น ๐—ฎ๐—ป๐—ฑ ๐—ฐ๐—ผ๐—บ๐—ถ๐—ป๐—ด ๐—ฏ๐—ฎ๐—ฐ๐—ธ ๐˜๐—ผ ๐—บ๐˜†๐˜€๐—ฒ๐—น๐—ณ…

So I kept showing up to myself each dayโ€ฆ

To this date, I do the sameโ€ฆ

4 years laterโ€ฆ

This morning I woke up, I meditated then I did my weight training exercisesโ€ฆ.

I ate my healthy breakfastโ€ฆ

I reminded myself of my goals and brought myself back to my centre a million timesโ€ฆ

And it is only lunch time

When my thoughts wonderedโ€ฆ

When my mind tries to take controlโ€ฆ.

Some people will look at this and think it is boringโ€ฆ

It is hard workโ€ฆ

But honestlyโ€ฆ

If you have ever sat in a chemo chair being pricked and prodded for over 1 yearโ€ฆ

Does my routine seem hard?

Yes I wanted to create a different body, mind and soulโ€ฆ

๐—”๐—ป๐—ฑ ๐—œ ๐—ฝ๐—ฟ๐—ฎ๐—ฐ๐˜๐—ถ๐—ฐ๐—ฒ ๐˜„๐—ต๐—ฎ๐˜ ๐—œ ๐—ฝ๐—ฟ๐—ฒ๐—ฎ๐—ฐ๐—ต ๐—ฒ๐˜ƒ๐—ฒ๐—ฟ๐˜† ๐˜€๐—ถ๐—ป๐—ด๐—น๐—ฒ ๐—ฑ๐—ฎ๐˜†โ€ฆ

Because no I donโ€™t want sit in that chair againโ€ฆ

And I am prepared to do whatever it takes for me to achieve my goalsโ€ฆ

So boredom is not in the equation anymoreโ€ฆ.

This is what I do and who I am.Hope this inspires you todayโ€ฆ.

To keep goingโ€ฆ.

In whatever you are doing to achieve the success you are looking forโ€ฆ

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“๐™๐™š๐™–๐™ง ๐™™๐™ค๐™š๐™จ๐™ฃโ€™๐™ฉ ๐™จ๐™ฉ๐™ค๐™ฅ ๐™™๐™š๐™–๐™ฉ๐™, ๐™ž๐™ฉ ๐™จ๐™ฉ๐™ค๐™ฅ๐™จ ๐™ก๐™ž๐™›๐™šโ€

When the pastor asked me what do you think it is going to happen if you die?

I was sobbingโ€ฆ

I had so much fear inside my head to leave my kidsโ€ฆ

My husband…

To leave my lifeโ€ฆ

And everything I wanted to liveโ€ฆ

As I imagined my funeral dayโ€ฆ

๐˜”๐˜บ ๐˜ฌ๐˜ช๐˜ฅ๐˜ด ๐˜ฃ๐˜ช๐˜ณ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฅ๐˜ข๐˜บ๐˜ด๐˜๐˜ช๐˜ณ๐˜ด๐˜ต ๐˜ฅ๐˜ข๐˜บ ๐˜ข๐˜ต ๐˜ฉ๐˜ช๐˜จ๐˜ฉ ๐˜ด๐˜ค๐˜ฉ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฐ๐˜ญ

๐˜‰๐˜ฐ๐˜บ๐˜ง๐˜ณ๐˜ช๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฅ๐˜ด, ๐˜จ๐˜ช๐˜ณ๐˜ญ๐˜ง๐˜ณ๐˜ช๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฅ๐˜ด, ๐˜ฑ๐˜ข๐˜ณ๐˜ต๐˜ช๐˜ฆ๐˜ด

๐˜ž๐˜ฆ๐˜ฅ๐˜ฅ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ๐˜ด

Without me…

I answered the question:

๐™‰๐™ค๐™ฉ๐™๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™œ ๐™ž๐™จ ๐™œ๐™ค๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™œ ๐™ฉ๐™ค ๐™๐™–๐™ฅ๐™ฅ๐™š๐™ฃ ๐™ž๐™› ๐™„ ๐™™๐™ž๐™š

My kids, my husband would be sad but they would need to keep livingโ€ฆ

As I left the pastorโ€™s officeI felt free…

It was exactly what I needed to hear…

Maybe a little tough for some but for me was divinely presented by the pastor…

As God presented each step in my journey to healing…

๐—œ ๐˜„๐—ฎ๐˜€๐—ป’๐˜ ๐—ด๐—ผ๐—ถ๐—ป๐—ด ๐˜๐—ผ ๐˜€๐—ฝ๐—ฒ๐—ป๐—ฑ ๐—ผ๐—ป๐—ฒ ๐—บ๐—ผ๐—ฟ๐—ฒ ๐—ฑ๐—ฎ๐˜† ๐˜๐—ต๐—ถ๐—ป๐—ธ๐—ถ๐—ป๐—ด ๐—ฎ๐—ฏ๐—ผ๐˜‚๐˜ ๐—ฑ๐˜†๐—ถ๐—ป๐—ด…

Instead….

I was going to live each day to the full….

๐˜ ๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ๐˜ข๐˜ญ๐˜ช๐˜ด๐˜ฆ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ต ๐˜ข๐˜ญ๐˜ญ ๐˜ข๐˜ญ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ๐˜จ ๐˜ ๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ฅ ๐˜ฃ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ ๐˜ค๐˜ญ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ ๐˜ฎ๐˜บ ๐˜ด๐˜ถ๐˜ง๐˜ง๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ…

๐˜›๐˜ฐ ๐˜ฎ๐˜บ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ธ๐˜ฏ ๐˜ฎ๐˜ช๐˜ด๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜บ….

๐˜›๐˜ฐ ๐˜ฎ๐˜บ ๐˜ฃ๐˜ข๐˜ค๐˜ฌ ๐˜ด๐˜ต๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ๐˜บ…

๐˜›๐˜ฐ ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฆ๐˜จ๐˜ข๐˜ต๐˜ช๐˜ท๐˜ฆ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜จ๐˜ฉ๐˜ต๐˜ด….

๐˜ž๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ๐˜ณ๐˜บ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ ๐˜ข๐˜ฃ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜ต ๐˜ธ๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ต ๐˜ด๐˜ฐ๐˜ค๐˜ช๐˜ฆ๐˜ต๐˜บ ๐˜ฆ๐˜น๐˜ฑ๐˜ฆ๐˜ค๐˜ต๐˜ฆ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ง๐˜ณ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฎ ๐˜ฎ๐˜ฆ…

๐˜Œ๐˜ท๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜จ๐˜ฉ ๐˜ ๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ฅ ๐˜ญ๐˜ฆ๐˜ง๐˜ต ๐˜ฎ๐˜บ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ธ๐˜ฏ ๐˜ค๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜ฏ๐˜ต๐˜ณ๐˜บ ๐˜ง๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ต ๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ๐˜ข๐˜ด๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ญ๐˜ช๐˜ท๐˜ฆ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ 6 ๐˜ค๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜ฏ๐˜ต๐˜ณ๐˜ช๐˜ฆ๐˜ด ๐˜ข๐˜ง๐˜ต๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ต…

All of that baggage and beliefs…

Came with me everywhere I went…

And it got me sick….

These days when I have a stressful day, a difficult conversation, a challenging time….

I remember the days I couldn’t even get out of bed….

What an amazing gift to live again….

and go through challenges again…

๐™„๐™› ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช ๐™ฌ๐™–๐™ฃ๐™ฉ ๐™ฉ๐™ค ๐™˜๐™๐™–๐™ฃ๐™œ๐™š ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช๐™ง ๐™ก๐™ž๐™›๐™š….

๐˜ฟ๐™ค๐™ฃ’๐™ฉ ๐™œ๐™š๐™ฉ ๐™ช๐™จ๐™š๐™™ ๐™ฉ๐™ค ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช๐™ง ๐™ฅ๐™–๐™ž๐™ฃ…

๐™๐™ค ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช๐™ง ๐™—๐™–๐™œ๐™œ๐™–๐™œ๐™š….

๐™๐™ค ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช๐™ง ๐™ฅ๐™๐™ฎ๐™จ๐™ž๐™˜๐™–๐™ก ๐™จ๐™ฉ๐™–๐™ฉ๐™š (๐™ฎ๐™š๐™จ ๐™›๐™ง๐™ค๐™ข ๐™š๐™ญ๐™ฅ๐™š๐™ง๐™ž๐™š๐™ฃ๐™˜๐™š ๐™„ ๐™˜๐™–๐™ฃ ๐™ฉ๐™–๐™ก๐™  ๐™–๐™—๐™ค๐™ช๐™ฉ ๐™ฉ๐™๐™ž๐™จ ๐™š๐™ญ๐™ฉ๐™š๐™ฃ๐™จ๐™ž๐™ซ๐™š๐™ก๐™ฎ)

๐˜ฟ๐™ค๐™ฃ’๐™ฉ ๐™œ๐™š๐™ฉ ๐™ช๐™จ๐™š๐™™ ๐™ฉ๐™ค ๐™™๐™ค๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™œ ๐™ฌ๐™๐™–๐™ฉ ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช ๐™™๐™ค๐™ฃ’๐™ฉ ๐™ก๐™ค๐™ซ๐™š ๐™š๐™–๐™˜๐™ ๐™™๐™–๐™ฎ (๐™ฉ๐™๐™ž๐™จ ๐™ช๐™ฃ๐™๐™–๐™ฅ๐™ฅ๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™š๐™จ๐™จ ๐™™๐™–๐™ข๐™–๐™œ๐™š๐™จ ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช๐™ง ๐™ฅ๐™๐™ฎ๐™จ๐™ž๐™˜๐™–๐™ก ๐™—๐™ค๐™™๐™ฎ)

Instead

๐™ˆ๐™–๐™ ๐™š ๐™– ๐™™๐™š๐™˜๐™ž๐™จ๐™ž๐™ค๐™ฃ ๐™ฉ๐™ค ๐™˜๐™๐™–๐™ฃ๐™œ๐™š…

๐˜ฝ๐™š ๐™ฌ๐™ž๐™ก๐™ก๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™œ ๐™–๐™ฃ๐™™ ๐™ค๐™ฅ๐™š๐™ฃ ๐™ฉ๐™ค ๐™™๐™ค ๐™ž๐™ฉ…

๐™‚๐™š๐™ฉ ๐™œ๐™ช๐™ž๐™™๐™–๐™ฃ๐™˜๐™š ๐™ฌ๐™๐™š๐™ง๐™š ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช ๐™–๐™ง๐™š ๐™จ๐™ฉ๐™ช๐™˜๐™ …

๐™๐™–๐™ ๐™š ๐™จ๐™ฉ๐™š๐™ฅ๐™จ ๐™š๐™–๐™˜๐™ ๐™™๐™–๐™ฎ ๐™ง๐™š๐™ก๐™š๐™ฃ๐™ฉ๐™ก๐™š๐™จ๐™จ ๐™ฉ๐™ค ๐™œ๐™š๐™ฉ๐™ฉ๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™œ ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช๐™ง ๐™œ๐™ค๐™–๐™ก๐™จ…

๐˜ฝ๐™š๐™˜๐™–๐™ช๐™จ๐™š ๐™ž๐™› ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช ๐™™๐™ค, ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช ๐™’๐™„๐™‡๐™‡ ๐™œ๐™š๐™ฉ ๐™ฉ๐™๐™š ๐™ง๐™š๐™จ๐™ช๐™ก๐™ฉ๐™จ ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช ๐™ฌ๐™–๐™ฃ๐™ฉ….

Not in a million years I would have thought I would be at the best shape in my life after cancer treatment

Not in a million years I thought I would have my own business helping people to change their lives….

It all started with a decision…

A decision to live a life that I wanted….

On my terms…

And a decision to doing the work every day….

Everything that was required to get there and beyond…

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๐ˆ๐ฌ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ๐ซ ๐ฉ๐š๐ข๐ง ๐›๐ข๐ ๐ ๐ž๐ซ ๐ญ๐ก๐š๐ง ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ๐ซ ๐ฌ๐š๐œ๐ซ๐ข๐Ÿ๐ข๐œ๐ž?

When people ask meโ€ฆHow did you do it?

Change your diet while feeling sick as a dog during chemo?

Exercising while you could barely get up in the morning?

Never drank any alcohol after your diagnosis?(after binge drinking for 15 years)

Found forgiveness?

Let go of your past?My answer is simple:

๐ˆ ๐–๐€๐๐“๐„๐ƒ ๐“๐Ž ๐’๐”๐‘๐•๐ˆ๐•๐„

I wanted to live so badly that my pain became bigger than

Saying no to chocolate or blue cheese became easy

Saying no to alcohol which I was addicted to was fine(no I wasnโ€™t considered an alcoholic but I drank away too much)

My pain became bigger than my willingness to let go my past and forgiveโ€ฆ

Than my stupid stubbornness to being rightI wanted to liveโ€ฆ

That simple…

I was prepared to do whatever it tookAnd this is why I am here today

๐™๐™š๐™š๐™ก๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™œ ๐™ฉ๐™๐™š ๐™๐™š๐™–๐™ก๐™ฉ๐™๐™ž๐™š๐™จ๐™ฉ ๐™–๐™ฃ๐™™ ๐™๐™–๐™ฅ๐™ฅ๐™ž๐™š๐™จ๐™ฉ ๐™„ ๐™๐™–๐™ซ๐™š ๐™š๐™ซ๐™š๐™ง ๐™—๐™š๐™š๐™ฃ ๐™–๐™ฉ 42 ๐™ฎ๐™š๐™–๐™ง๐™จ ๐™ค๐™ก๐™™

๐™ƒ๐™š๐™ก๐™ฅ๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™œ ๐™ฅ๐™š๐™ค๐™ฅ๐™ก๐™š ๐™ฉ๐™ค ๐™–๐™˜๐™๐™ž๐™š๐™ซ๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™œ ๐™ฉ๐™๐™š ๐™จ๐™–๐™ข๐™š

๐™‡๐™ž๐™ซ๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™œ ๐™ข๐™ฎ ๐™ฅ๐™ช๐™ง๐™ฅ๐™ค๐™จ๐™š ๐™–๐™ฃ๐™™ ๐™ฅ๐™–๐™จ๐™จ๐™ž๐™ค๐™ฃ

Until my pain was bigger than my commitment to putting myself in an uncomfortable placeIโ€™d be honestโ€ฆIโ€™d have just stayed thereโ€ฆ

Doing the same things getting the same resultsโ€ฆ

๐˜“๐˜ช๐˜ท๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ ๐˜ญ๐˜ช๐˜ฌ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ข ๐˜ป๐˜ฐ๐˜ฎ๐˜ฃ๐˜ช๐˜ฆ

๐˜—๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ๐˜ต๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฅ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ ๐˜ ๐˜ธ๐˜ข๐˜ด ๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ฑ๐˜ฑ๐˜บ ๐˜ธ๐˜ฉ๐˜ช๐˜ญ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ ๐˜ธ๐˜ข๐˜ด๐˜ฏโ€™๐˜ต

๐˜—๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ๐˜ต๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฅ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ ๐˜ ๐˜ธ๐˜ข๐˜ด ๐˜ด๐˜ต๐˜ณ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ๐˜จ ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฎ๐˜ฐ๐˜ต๐˜ช๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ๐˜ข๐˜ญ๐˜ญ๐˜บ ๐˜ธ๐˜ฉ๐˜ช๐˜ญ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ ๐˜ธ๐˜ข๐˜ด ๐˜ง๐˜ข๐˜ญ๐˜ญ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ ๐˜ข ๐˜ฑ๐˜ข๐˜ณ๐˜ต ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜ด๐˜ช๐˜ฅ๐˜ฆ

๐˜‹๐˜ฐ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ ๐˜ธ๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ต ๐˜ฆ๐˜ท๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜บ๐˜ฃ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฅ๐˜บ ๐˜ฆ๐˜ญ๐˜ด๐˜ฆ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜ฌ๐˜ด ๐˜ช๐˜ด ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ๐˜ฎ๐˜ข๐˜ญ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ๐˜ด๐˜ฆ ๐˜ฅ๐˜ข๐˜บ๐˜ดโ€ฆ

๐˜ˆ๐˜ฃ๐˜ถ๐˜ด๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜ณ ๐˜ฃ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฅ๐˜ช๐˜ฆ๐˜ด ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ ๐˜ธ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ข๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ ๐˜จ๐˜ฐ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ ๐˜จ๐˜ฆ๐˜ต ๐˜ข๐˜ธ๐˜ข๐˜บ ๐˜ธ๐˜ช๐˜ต๐˜ฉ ๐˜ช๐˜ตโ€ฆ.

If your pain is big enough that you want to change your habitsโ€ฆ

If your pain is big enough is keeping yourself awake at nightโ€ฆ

If your pain is big enough that you feel overwhelmed by itโ€ฆ.

Join my

๐™๐™๐™€๐™€ ๐˜พ๐™ƒ๐˜ผ๐™‡๐™‡๐™€๐™‰๐™‚๐™€

๐˜พ๐™๐™๐™Ž๐™ƒ ๐™”๐™Š๐™๐™ ๐™‚๐™Š๐˜ผ๐™‡๐™Ž

๐˜พ๐™๐™๐™Ž๐™ƒ ๐™”๐™Š๐™๐™ ๐™ƒ๐˜ผ๐˜ฝ๐™„๐™๐™Ž

Because it sounds like you are ready to change your life

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What are you doing about your healing?

I hate depending on peopleโ€ฆ

I left my country when I was 21 years old with a deep desire to prove โ€œgirlsโ€ didnโ€™t have to get married and have kids if they didnโ€™t want toโ€ฆ

Yes I did get married and have children but I got to do what I wanted before hand ๐Ÿ”ฅI was the first in a large extended family that chose a โ€œnot so normal pathโ€

Instead of staying in my parents house until I got married, I went to the other side of the world without a planโ€ฆ

After living in 5 different countries, I have always carved my own pathโ€ฆ

With nobody to bail meโ€ฆ

And settling for what it was easy and comfortable is just not meโ€ฆ

In my healing journey, this desire not to depend on anything served me wellโ€ฆ

As I found myself depending on doctors and medications, once more I came back to myselfโ€ฆ

What could I do to change my situation?

What could I do each day to help my body and mind?

I took my power back completelyโ€ฆ

I vouched myself I wasnโ€™t going to depend on anythingโ€ฆ

My healing journey consisted of me, myself and Iโ€ฆ

Since chemo finished 2.5 years ago, I havenโ€™t had one single coldโ€ฆ

I havenโ€™t taken any medication

And I donโ€™t take supplements either ( only B12 bcs I eat a plant based diet)My health gets better and better each dayโ€ฆ

I believe we all have an incredible power within usโ€ฆ

All the time you keep looking for answers on the outsideโ€ฆ

You are distraction yourself from your inner powerโ€ฆ

If you are looking to heal yourself, this is my 2 cents on it:

Stop looking on the outside, spend time finding the answers within you.

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Are you running yourself to the ground?

Before I started my business I was scared I would run myself to the ground…

After having Stage 3 Bowel cancer I couldnโ€™t afford thatโ€ฆ

I mean burnout is a real thing and in actual fact people can burnout twiceโ€ฆ

So I thought to myselfHow can I stop myself to run the same cycle again?

Yes I had done a load of work on myself but I am someone who has high expectations of myself…

I am a doerโ€ฆ

I am not a settler

And striving for more is deep in my coreโ€ฆ

But I needed to set my priorities rightโ€ฆ

From the beginningโ€ฆ

My priorities were simplePut myself first regardless..

Everything else comes afterโ€ฆ

The family, the businessโ€ฆ

I guess my journey taught me I needed to put my oxygen mask first

If I wanted to be around for my kids, my husband and familyโ€ฆ

If I wanted to live my lifeโ€ฆ

Achieve my goalsโ€ฆ

Share all the knowledge I had learnedโ€ฆ.

I see so many entrepreneurs running themselves to the groundโ€ฆ

With their habitsโ€ฆ

But I will never stop bringing the awareness to everyone who is ready to hear it outโ€ฆ

Donโ€™t do it for the financial rewardโ€ฆ

Stop running yourself to the groundโ€ฆ

There is another wayโ€ฆ

Because what I can tell you isโ€ฆ

When they tell you your life is on the lineโ€ฆ

Everything that you have been โ€œfightingโ€ forโ€ฆ

Looses its valueโ€ฆ

And you only want one thingโ€ฆ

Your lifeโ€ฆ

Your health

One more chanceโ€ฆ

Not to gamble with your health againโ€ฆ

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Are you living in an comfortable or uncomfortable place?

The real pain and suffering comes from not making uncomfortable decisions

I remember how uncomfortable I felt

How unhappy I was

How lost I felt

Before cancer I feel my life was a blurโ€ฆ

I didnโ€™t know who I wasโ€ฆ

If I was coming or goingโ€ฆ

I was never presentโ€ฆ

My focus was scatteredโ€ฆ

I was running awayโ€ฆ

Because being in my body was uncomfortable

My thoughts were always racing in the wrong directionsโ€ฆ

All of a sudden it was as if someone pressed pause in my life:I needed to think about how I was going to press play againโ€ฆ

Did I want to run the same movie again?

Or did I want to create a different one?

Creating a different one felt impossibleโ€ฆ

It felt like a lot of workโ€ฆ

It felt painfulโ€ฆ

But doing the same thing over and over again wasn’t an option anymoreโ€ฆ

It lead me to sicknessโ€ฆ

I needed to recognise thatโ€ฆ

As I took the leapโ€ฆ

And started creating a new movie.

I realised that taking uncomfortable actions were not as uncomfortable as I was livingโ€ฆ

Creating a new movie wasnโ€™t as scary as staying in the one I had been running my whole life.

When you ask yourself for real: what is it more uncomfortable?

Staying where you are or creating a new version of you where you become who you want to be?

You might be tempted to answer staying where I amโ€ฆ

But if you dig deeper and ask yourselfโ€ฆ

Do I feel good in my body?

Are my thoughts contributing to my well being?

Do I mostly live in a beautiful or a frustrated state of mind?

I guess it is up to each of us to choose which unconfortable choice we wantโ€ฆ๐Ÿ˜‰

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This will give your tummy a break…

This time of the yearโ€ฆ

It is tempting to overeatโ€ฆ

Tell yourself you will change your diet next yearโ€ฆ

Tell yourself you just need to get through Xmas and next year you will start all over againโ€ฆ

We all know that this is utlimately a story that people tell themselves when they want to postpone something they need to but they are not doing either because they donโ€™t know how to do itโ€ฆ

Or because deep down they donโ€™t want to do it or they are waiting for a magic wand to come and do it for themโ€ฆ

I cooked this recipe a couple of days ago and it was deliciousโ€ฆ

This will give your tummy a break from all the excess of processed foods, fat, sugar and everything it is available during this period that donโ€™t serve anyoneโ€™s bodiesโ€ฆ

VEGETABLE CURRY RECIPE

Cut 1 onion, 2-3 garlic cloves, 1-2 chillies in small chucnks Grate 1 cm ginger

Add olive olive oil to a saucepan 2 teaspoons of ground cumin 1 teaspoon of turmeric.

Gently fry until you can smell the spices Add the onion, garlic, garlic and chillies.

Gently fry for 2-3 minutes Cut out 3-4 potatoes in bite size chunks, 1/2 cauliflower heasd, 1 courgette

Add all the vegetables to the onion and garlic mixture with 1 tomatoe tin

Add 1 coconut milk tin 3-4 Kaffir limes

Leave it to simmer for 30 minutes.

It was delicious๐Ÿ˜‹

You can eat as a soup or cook millet or quinoa to eat with…

This year I have learned working with clients that when they change what they put in their bodies, everything changes for them.

I also learned that most people who have tried all their lives doing things that were drastic, they fell in love with making small changes that they could commit for good…

Because they felt in their bodies and mind a massive difference…

For instance, cooking 1 plant base meal per week will give you a break from consuming animal products which causes inflamation in our bodies. You will also help with any constipation issues you may have as the western diet leads people to have many issues with that.

Anyhow, hope you can manage to give your gut a break in this festive season.

For now, don’t forget that life is not going to end after Xmas.

Take it easy

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How much does it matter to you?

Health is not measured by how you look but by how you feel every dayโ€ฆ.

Happiness is not measured by what you have but by how you feel on the insideโ€ฆ

Fulfilment is not measured by what others think about you but by how what you do each day makes you feelโ€ฆ

Magic pills, instant gratification, quick results give you a taste of health, happiness and fulfilment but it is only a tasteโ€ฆ

not the full blownโ€ฆ

After I reached rock bottom with my physical, emotional health as well as my professional life, I stopped fooling myself with a shot of it all, I wanted the full blown.

I started looking at everything as a long term plan:

What can I do today to feel the healthiest I can for as long as I can?

What do I need to change emotionally to feel the happiest I can for as long as I can?

What do I need to accomplish each day to feel as fulfilled as I can each and every day of my working hours?

People are constantly looking for the quick fixes short term results while they are missing the magic of the long term thinking.

If you want to transform your life on the long term and stop going around in circles looking for the next shiny object that will get you one more dopamine hit, rest assure that

This is what it is possible if you are committed to your transformation:

Go from exhaustion to peak energy

Emotionally broken and hurt to emotionally free

Overwhelm to being in control

Not having choices to making different choices

It is all down to one thing: are you worth it?