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Do you love your work?

If you don’t know my story in detail…you might not know that before being a Wellness and Lifestyle Expert, I worked in recruitment.

From when I graduated from university, I had several different jobs, in marketing, logistics, customer service, finance but it wasn’t until I fell into recruitment that I felt I had found a career.

I loved dealing with people, helping them to find a new job and in most cases, they would tell me their problems beyond their career’s ones.

If anyone asks me what is my gift, I would always say: it is my ability to connect with people.🥰

At work I was always interested in who they were, what drove them. I always tried to connect with them at a human level. I gave them the attention they were craving for. I gave them my ears to listen to their problems.

You know like when you are talking with someone, giving them your full attention and not looking at your mobile?

These days it is rare to have those conversations right?

I became successful at what I did because I loved it so much and in the last year before I was diagnosed with cancer, I moved to Brisbane to work for the same company​ I used to work for in Auckland.

When I moved, the company gave me an opportunity to recruit a different specialization. I started recruiting for software developers.

It was a massive learning curve for me to understand what they did…

It was a competitive and unforgiven market, so when I called a candidate unless I knew what I was talking about, they wouldn’t give me the time of the day.

Again I worked so hard in that year to learn everything about developers….while my health was declining fast…🤦

I felt I needed to prove to the company I worked for that they had made the right choice to give me an opportunity in Brisbane.

After my diagnosis, chemotherapy…I tried going back to work…first part-time….

It was difficult to let go of that part of me…and to let go of all the hard work I had put in…I had been working in recruitment for 10 years…

And after cancer, I really started noticing how many people I spoke to daily that were unhappy about what they did.

It was so difficult not to tell them:

Find another solution…

Find another job..

Life is too short…

after what I had been through.

I remember talking to a very successful developer who told me he would love to be a photographer.

I asked them why don’t you do it?

He told me, he had tried and it didn’t work.🙁

He wasn’t the only one, I could see how much people’s work life affected their well being as I was a lot more aware of it.

Slowly as I started my own business alongside my part-time job and I had to be true to myself.

After what I had gone through, all of a sudden I had this urgency of living a life that I wanted, not a life that was expected of me anymore.

I was also very aware of how draining I felt after the days I worked as a recruiter…it didn’t make me feel happy anymore.

During last year’s Christmas holidays, I told myself I am going to work on my business everyday, put 100% of my time on it.

I felt great…I wasn’t tired…if anything I could work more…

so I discussed with my husband and I decided I was going to resign when I got back from holidays and I did.

I needed to take control of my work life as the last part of my healing. I needed to do what it made me feel happy.🙂

We spend so much time unhappy in a job because you think we have to, we don’t have other options and we forget that we are spending more time unhappy than happy as we spend 8 hours or more 5 days per week in our jobs.

I can see you are thinking but it is easy for you…you knew what you wanted to do…you could just leave your job etc…

Truth is it wasn’t easy…. it took me a whole year to get the courage to leave my job.

It took me working on my business and on my job, refining what I did daily, doing lots of online courses to learn how I could go about my business…

while I was recovering from chemotherapy…

Remember I wasn’t even on social media!

But I had a deep desire to share my story and to share with the world that we could regain control of our health regardless of our situation.

I couldn’t ignore what I had learned.

Now when I see a client making progress, when I see people changing after working with me…

When I get messages from people saying thank you for what you are doing, I have changed my diet…I introduced exercise…I am more aware of my thoughts…

It made it all worthy…

It makes all the fear and doubt look so small in comparison to what I believe my mission is…

What I am trying to say here is your work life is a massive part of your well being…

When you are not happy at your work life…it is hard to be happy at home, with your family, with yourself, on your free time.

When you are not happy at you work life, you feel drained and it takes your energy away….

When you are not happy at your work life, you put stress on your body and mind….

How can you change that?

As everything in life, focus on it, make small steps towards a new job, a new career, setting up your own business or whatever you desire.

Life is here for us to live in the here and the now and it is up to us to decide how we live our lives in the here and the now.

Give it your best shot!

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We all want the same thing…

Being loved, accepted, feel we are seen…

We all want to feel loved…

We all want to feel accepted…

We all want to be seen…

And we all look for that outside of us…because we feel we need to find it outside of ourselves…

And we forget to look inside…

We forget that we are the only ones who can understand what it is going on inside us…

We are the only ones who can sit with ourselves to really know what it is going on…

So in the search of all the love, acceptance and significance…

we forget that we are the ones who can love us first

who can accept us first

who can really see who we are first.

I can hear you asking yourself…how do I do that?

It takes practice…daily practice…

Loving yourself is allowing 5 minutes to sit down while you have a cup of tea

Loving yourself is acknowledging that you are tired and going to bed a little earlier

Loving yourself is to speak kindly to yourself when you overacted about a situation

Loving yourself is allowing you to doing one thing you love each day…

reading a book…

going for a walk…

listening to music…

dancing…

drawing…

Loving yourself is acknowledging where you are at with your exercise routine

eating habits

your meditation practice…

and telling yourself

I am not looking for perfection…I am looking for progression.

Loving yourself is celebrating something you do well each day

When we look for approval, love and acceptance on the outside…we forget to look inside.

Today I invite you to look on the inside…and to notice how it feels…

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Does this sound familiar?

You wake up thinking: I am exhausted!!!

And a voice inside you answers: but you need to keep going….

To which you answer: Yes I know.

Then you jump on your treadmill and you start your day…

By the way the treadmill here is not a real one, it is just your life…

You can observe from here how that goes…

It is a never ending race where you go from one thing to another with nothing left for you.

I never thought there was another way…

I thought everybody had to just run themselves ragged…day in day out…

I thought this was the only way to living…

Until I was forced to find another way…

I always say to my husband that if my cancer had been Stage 1 or Stage 2, I would have gone back straight onto that treadmill again…

Sadly this is the reality of it all…

I needed a big shake up…

My wake up call needed to be serious…SUPER SERIOUS…for me to listen…

So I did…

In the process of leaving my corporate job and starting my business, I thought for a moment that everyone would like to hear my story…

Everyone would like to see that there was another way…

But I realized that mostly I speak to the older version of myself…

And the older version of myself would have never done, seen or believed that there was another way…

She was so stuck in that pattern that she needed something pretty big to stop that treadmill.

Besides she was too scared to admit she was wrong…

She was too embarrassed to admit she needed help.

I realized that to stay focus on bringing awareness to the “old version of myself”, I needed to connect to something a lot deeper inside me…

So daily I connect to the “old me” and I feel so much compassion for that lady…

who tried so hard…

who never gave up…

but who secretly wanted something else….

If you wanna reach out for help, you know where I am.

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It can be small, it doesn’t have to be big…

As the world becomes more and more uncertainty, we are left to making one decision…

Are we going to take control of our lives or are we going to leave it up to chance?

Are you going to take small steps each day to look after ourselves or are we going to wait for something else to happen before we do anything?

On the 1st of January I stopped drinking coffee…

By the way I am not saying coffee is bad, all I saying is I wanted to take this “small step” to see how my body felt.

Instead of reading a book about it (by the way I have read many good and bad things about coffee) I decided to listen to my gut, to stop drinking coffee and to actually experience what it does in my body…

Ya know…I am Brazilian…I have drank coffee my whole entire life and I have always loved coffee.

Before I was diagnosed with cancer, I was drinking away too much coffee with sugar too (ouch!) and my inner voice kept telling me, you should stop drinking coffee.

But it has taken me 2.5 years to stop drinking coffee…

Isn’t that crazy?

We get so caught up in our habits that we think that if we hold on to that, it means we are living a “good” life.

But we forget (or maybe ignore altogether) to accept that some of our habits are just not good for us…

Yet we keep doing…

So to answer that question that is in your head?

Do I feel better about not drinking coffee?

YES, I DO!

I feel coffee gave me a fake feeling of energy (which I don’t need by the way as I have away too much energy) and coffee is also too strong for my bowel (yes exactly where my cancer was)

So the short answer is for me drinking one coffee per day (which is what I did) is probably not beneficial.

So what about you?

What have you been doing that you know in your gut (sometimes literally) that is not good for you?

You don’t have to stop forever…

You can always stop and see how you feel…

Nobody is going to stop you from going back to it…

You can simply try it…

See how you feel it…

And if you decide you still want to keep that “habit”, just go back to it.

I would love to hear how you get on…

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The most powerful tool I have ever used…

When I was told I had Stage 3 Bowel Cancer, I didn’t get angry…

I didn’t blame anyone or anything…

I found a calm place quietly within myself and I asked God:

Wow that is serious! What do you want to tell me?

The answer was simple: You need to forgive.

At that moment in time, it felt like an impossible mission.

So I put that thought to the side…

As I started taking one step at a time during chemotherapy, that thought would come back in different forms…

How do you want to live your life after this?

What are you going to do to stay well from the inside out?

How are you going to survive?

Are you going to forgive or hold on to this for the rest of your life?

Although I was changing my diet, introducing exercise, meditating each day, reading every health book I could get my hands on…

I tried to avoid that though…

But that though would come back:

What about forgiveness?

I was so hurt that I could barely sit with my pain….

I was so hurt that I could barely open up my heart…

But slowly I started to doing the work…

I wanted to live so badly that I had to give everything a try….

As I reached out to God many times in my journey, as I meditated each day, as I sat with my painful feelings…

I could feel the forgiveness filling my soul slowly….

I could feel that weight lifting off my shoulders…

I could feel my energy changing….

I created a course “Finding forgiveness” as without forgiveness I wouldn’t have healed myself…

I wouldn’t have found happiness and fulfilment…

I wouldn’t have found self love…

If you need to forgive someone, yourself or something, I would love you to go through my course where I teach how to find forgiveness in steps

This is a practical course where I share what I have learned about forgiveness and how I was able to achieve forgiveness

To get this course, click here:

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Are you a fighter?

When I was diagnosed with cancer, I was living in Australia…

I had moved from New Zealand a year prior to my diagnosis and I had come to work for the same company as I used to work for in New Zealand…

My old manager from New Zealand called me…

I was looking for reassurance from everywhere and everyone that I could survive this…

I didn’t know anyone who had had cancer…so I was scared…S***scared if I am honest.

I thought people who had chemotherapy just died…I imagined myself holding on to my life for the entire treatment confined in bed.

I can’t imagine how hard it was for her to call me…

So I asked her as I sobbed: Do you think I can survive this?

She said: “Of course you can – you are my Brazilian fighter”

I have always been a fighter at work…I wanted to perform…I had high expectations of myself.

But the reality is I was tired of fighting….

I felt lonely…

I felt alone when everybody around me had a mum and dad to support them…

I also never allowed my husband to look after me…I needed to be in control…

and I always felt that my worth was directly related to how financially independent I was.

Growing up, I saw my mum depend on my dad financially and that created so much anger inside me.

My dad was a chauvinist and often he thought about himself only as supposed to ask my mum what she needed…

I promised myself I would never depend on ANYONE.

I was going to be the governor of my own life…

But all of a sudden I had ran out of steam…and the fire inside me was almost out….

The word “fighter” didn’t resonated with me anymore… I wanted to find a new way of living…an easier way…one that didn’t have to be too hard.

When I looked on internet often the word cancer was attached to fight, to battle…

instead of self love, self care, forgiveness, positive changes…

As I embarked on my cancer journey, I decided I wasn’t going to fight…

I wasn’t going to battle this disease…

I was going to EMBRACE it full hearted…

I was going to jump from a plane with a parachute without any certainty that the parachute was going to open…

I wanted to feel free…

I wanted to free myself from all that fight I had gone through in my life…

I wanted to quieten my mind…my heart…

I wanted to feel loved again…pure love…unconditional love….

I wanted to forgive myself and others…

What about you? Are you fighting or embracing?

Are you in a battle or living with ease?

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Snakes and ladders and your health

Do you remember playing snakes and ladders when you were a child?

It was really annoying to feel you were winning and all of a sudden we stopped right and the place where the ladder takes you all the way down…

When it comes to health, we are always looking for quick wins…

and we get easily disheartened and discouraged when we look in the mirror and don’t see a 6-pack after going to the gym for a whole month…

I somehow knew from the beginning that my journey wasn’t going to be a quick win one…

Maybe I realized that I had abused my body for so long that I couldn’t even see how I was going to get back to health again…

So I kept showing up every single day for myself…

To be honest I didn’t see any other choice…

I could have lie down during chemo every day while I ate cakes and felt sorry for myself but instead

I chose to drag myself to exercise, to eat healthily, to meditate, to read books on health…

Slowly I started feeling more energy, stronger, better about myself physically and emotionally

By the time I finished chemo (7.5 months – 12 sessions), I felt stronger physically and mentally than when I started.

I remember one of the nurses telling me on my last chemo session:

“Angelica in 8 years of oncology, I have seen 4 people finishing this chemo. Normally people get too sick to finish it.”

My goal has never been only to finish chemotherapy…

My goal was much bigger than that…

My goal was to live…to live a long and health life…

And I was prepared to be consistent every single day…

What about you? What is your goal when it comes to your health?

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When was last time you invested…

on you?

Yes the world is still in turmoil, yes life feels like is far from being normal and yes there is so much that is unknown when we think about the future.

But…

I am here to tell you that there is one thing you can do that can change everything…

There is one thing you can do that can bring certainty in your life…

There is one thing you can do that can create peace in your world…

And that is…

To invest on you…

Wherever you are at in life now, you can create whatever you desire.

Whenever you start investing on yourself, you feel empowered because you realize you can control you.

We are constantly seeking pleasure, acceptance, approval outside of us while we have all the answers inside us.

We are constantly seeking love, peace, joy outside of us while we can barely spend any time finding out what truly brings us joy, peace and love.

We are constantly looking to connect to other people while we feel so disconnected to ourselves.

Trust me…

You can change your reality, you can find your own answers…

you don’t need to be afraid.

All you need to do is to WANT to change your current situation.

And connect to your why.

Whether you want to achieve…

better health physically…

happier life mentally and emotionally or…

more connection to your spiritually…

Start working towards it now.

Get excited about it!

Make plans for the future!

Remember you can only control you…

So invest on you and embrace the rewards of creating a new you.

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Are you making space?

for reflections my friends…

the world has never been more confusing…

And it leaves little time for us to think and to reflect…

In business, people always talk about reviewing and learning from their challenges….so why not do it for our lives?

We put so much effort in getting better at work, in our business and whatever brings us financial reward but when it comes to our health, it is a whole different ball game…

We all experienced changes, stress, challenging situations and there is so much opportunity to reflect and learn.

When facing adversity, we grow, we learn, we adapt but it is important to take time to reflect on what has happened.

And that doesn’t happen from a comfortable seat.

In my journey to healing, I decided very early on that I was going to do things differently when it came to my health….

I didn’t want to stay stuck in the hamster wheel running unconscisouly anymore…

I wasn’t going to play the victim either…

I stopped blaming and I took back my power…

I became so obsessed about creating a new body, mind and soul that I saw that as my only path to healing.

Changing everything, seeing things from a different perspective, accepting 100% responsibility and stopping to let external things/thoughts/people influence how I felt and feel each day was and still is my focus daily amongst many others.

I decided to live consciously…

When people asks me…

how did you do it?

I always goes back to the commitment I made to myself – I was determined to go inwards…

I always prepared to do whatever it took to regain control of my health…

without any guarantees…

I dove deep into the unknown…

with only one focus…me, myself and I…my health on the inside out….

Since my cancer diagnosis, I have been going deeper in everything I do: in my diet, exercise, self regulating my emotions, in all my daily practices…

and recently in my meditation practice.

And recently I have been focusing on:

Letting go and surrender

Accepting and embrace

And the art of living with ease...

All I can say is:

IT FEELS GOOD!

IT FEELS LIGHT!

So take this opportunity to reflect on what it is happening in your life, your challenges, the positives and all the amazing things you have been doing and accomplishing…

Take time to being grateful…

Take the time to go inward…

Take the time to embrace the unknown.

Take the lead of your life…

Take back to control…

Your life is your own project…it is all up to you!