The real pain and suffering comes from not making uncomfortable decisions
I remember how uncomfortable I felt
How unhappy I was
How lost I felt
Before cancer I feel my life was a blur…
I didn’t know who I was…
If I was coming or going…
I was never present…
My focus was scattered…
I was running away…
Because being in my body was uncomfortable
My thoughts were always racing in the wrong directions…
All of a sudden it was as if someone pressed pause in my life:I needed to think about how I was going to press play again…
Did I want to run the same movie again?
Or did I want to create a different one?
Creating a different one felt impossible…
It felt like a lot of work…
It felt painful…
But doing the same thing over and over again wasn’t an option anymore…
It lead me to sickness…
I needed to recognise that…
As I took the leap…
And started creating a new movie.
I realised that taking uncomfortable actions were not as uncomfortable as I was living…
Creating a new movie wasn’t as scary as staying in the one I had been running my whole life.
When you ask yourself for real: what is it more uncomfortable?
Staying where you are or creating a new version of you where you become who you want to be?
You might be tempted to answer staying where I am…
But if you dig deeper and ask yourself…
Do I feel good in my body?
Are my thoughts contributing to my well being?
Do I mostly live in a beautiful or a frustrated state of mind?
I guess it is up to each of us to choose which unconfortable choice we want…