The real pain and suffering comes from not making uncomfortable decisions

I remember how uncomfortable I felt

How unhappy I was

How lost I felt

Before cancer I feel my life was a blur…

I didn’t know who I was…

If I was coming or going…

I was never present…

My focus was scattered…

I was running away…

Because being in my body was uncomfortable

My thoughts were always racing in the wrong directions…

All of a sudden it was as if someone pressed pause in my life:I needed to think about how I was going to press play again…

Did I want to run the same movie again?

Or did I want to create a different one?

Creating a different one felt impossible…

It felt like a lot of work…

It felt painful…

But doing the same thing over and over again wasn’t an option anymore…

It lead me to sickness…

I needed to recognise that…

As I took the leap…

And started creating a new movie.

I realised that taking uncomfortable actions were not as uncomfortable as I was living…

Creating a new movie wasn’t as scary as staying in the one I had been running my whole life.

When you ask yourself for real: what is it more uncomfortable?

Staying where you are or creating a new version of you where you become who you want to be?

You might be tempted to answer staying where I am…

But if you dig deeper and ask yourself…

Do I feel good in my body?

Are my thoughts contributing to my well being?

Do I mostly live in a beautiful or a frustrated state of mind?

I guess it is up to each of us to choose which unconfortable choice we want…