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“๐™๐™š๐™–๐™ง ๐™™๐™ค๐™š๐™จ๐™ฃโ€™๐™ฉ ๐™จ๐™ฉ๐™ค๐™ฅ ๐™™๐™š๐™–๐™ฉ๐™, ๐™ž๐™ฉ ๐™จ๐™ฉ๐™ค๐™ฅ๐™จ ๐™ก๐™ž๐™›๐™šโ€

When the pastor asked me what do you think it is going to happen if you die?

I was sobbingโ€ฆ

I had so much fear inside my head to leave my kidsโ€ฆ

My husband…

To leave my lifeโ€ฆ

And everything I wanted to liveโ€ฆ

As I imagined my funeral dayโ€ฆ

๐˜”๐˜บ ๐˜ฌ๐˜ช๐˜ฅ๐˜ด ๐˜ฃ๐˜ช๐˜ณ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฅ๐˜ข๐˜บ๐˜ด๐˜๐˜ช๐˜ณ๐˜ด๐˜ต ๐˜ฅ๐˜ข๐˜บ ๐˜ข๐˜ต ๐˜ฉ๐˜ช๐˜จ๐˜ฉ ๐˜ด๐˜ค๐˜ฉ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฐ๐˜ญ

๐˜‰๐˜ฐ๐˜บ๐˜ง๐˜ณ๐˜ช๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฅ๐˜ด, ๐˜จ๐˜ช๐˜ณ๐˜ญ๐˜ง๐˜ณ๐˜ช๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฅ๐˜ด, ๐˜ฑ๐˜ข๐˜ณ๐˜ต๐˜ช๐˜ฆ๐˜ด

๐˜ž๐˜ฆ๐˜ฅ๐˜ฅ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ๐˜ด

Without me…

I answered the question:

๐™‰๐™ค๐™ฉ๐™๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™œ ๐™ž๐™จ ๐™œ๐™ค๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™œ ๐™ฉ๐™ค ๐™๐™–๐™ฅ๐™ฅ๐™š๐™ฃ ๐™ž๐™› ๐™„ ๐™™๐™ž๐™š

My kids, my husband would be sad but they would need to keep livingโ€ฆ

As I left the pastorโ€™s officeI felt free…

It was exactly what I needed to hear…

Maybe a little tough for some but for me was divinely presented by the pastor…

As God presented each step in my journey to healing…

๐—œ ๐˜„๐—ฎ๐˜€๐—ป’๐˜ ๐—ด๐—ผ๐—ถ๐—ป๐—ด ๐˜๐—ผ ๐˜€๐—ฝ๐—ฒ๐—ป๐—ฑ ๐—ผ๐—ป๐—ฒ ๐—บ๐—ผ๐—ฟ๐—ฒ ๐—ฑ๐—ฎ๐˜† ๐˜๐—ต๐—ถ๐—ป๐—ธ๐—ถ๐—ป๐—ด ๐—ฎ๐—ฏ๐—ผ๐˜‚๐˜ ๐—ฑ๐˜†๐—ถ๐—ป๐—ด…

Instead….

I was going to live each day to the full….

๐˜ ๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ๐˜ข๐˜ญ๐˜ช๐˜ด๐˜ฆ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ต ๐˜ข๐˜ญ๐˜ญ ๐˜ข๐˜ญ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ๐˜จ ๐˜ ๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ฅ ๐˜ฃ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ ๐˜ค๐˜ญ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ ๐˜ฎ๐˜บ ๐˜ด๐˜ถ๐˜ง๐˜ง๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ…

๐˜›๐˜ฐ ๐˜ฎ๐˜บ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ธ๐˜ฏ ๐˜ฎ๐˜ช๐˜ด๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜บ….

๐˜›๐˜ฐ ๐˜ฎ๐˜บ ๐˜ฃ๐˜ข๐˜ค๐˜ฌ ๐˜ด๐˜ต๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ๐˜บ…

๐˜›๐˜ฐ ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฆ๐˜จ๐˜ข๐˜ต๐˜ช๐˜ท๐˜ฆ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜จ๐˜ฉ๐˜ต๐˜ด….

๐˜ž๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ๐˜ณ๐˜บ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ ๐˜ข๐˜ฃ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜ต ๐˜ธ๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ต ๐˜ด๐˜ฐ๐˜ค๐˜ช๐˜ฆ๐˜ต๐˜บ ๐˜ฆ๐˜น๐˜ฑ๐˜ฆ๐˜ค๐˜ต๐˜ฆ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ง๐˜ณ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฎ ๐˜ฎ๐˜ฆ…

๐˜Œ๐˜ท๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜จ๐˜ฉ ๐˜ ๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ฅ ๐˜ญ๐˜ฆ๐˜ง๐˜ต ๐˜ฎ๐˜บ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ธ๐˜ฏ ๐˜ค๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜ฏ๐˜ต๐˜ณ๐˜บ ๐˜ง๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ต ๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ๐˜ข๐˜ด๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ญ๐˜ช๐˜ท๐˜ฆ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ 6 ๐˜ค๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜ฏ๐˜ต๐˜ณ๐˜ช๐˜ฆ๐˜ด ๐˜ข๐˜ง๐˜ต๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ต…

All of that baggage and beliefs…

Came with me everywhere I went…

And it got me sick….

These days when I have a stressful day, a difficult conversation, a challenging time….

I remember the days I couldn’t even get out of bed….

What an amazing gift to live again….

and go through challenges again…

๐™„๐™› ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช ๐™ฌ๐™–๐™ฃ๐™ฉ ๐™ฉ๐™ค ๐™˜๐™๐™–๐™ฃ๐™œ๐™š ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช๐™ง ๐™ก๐™ž๐™›๐™š….

๐˜ฟ๐™ค๐™ฃ’๐™ฉ ๐™œ๐™š๐™ฉ ๐™ช๐™จ๐™š๐™™ ๐™ฉ๐™ค ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช๐™ง ๐™ฅ๐™–๐™ž๐™ฃ…

๐™๐™ค ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช๐™ง ๐™—๐™–๐™œ๐™œ๐™–๐™œ๐™š….

๐™๐™ค ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช๐™ง ๐™ฅ๐™๐™ฎ๐™จ๐™ž๐™˜๐™–๐™ก ๐™จ๐™ฉ๐™–๐™ฉ๐™š (๐™ฎ๐™š๐™จ ๐™›๐™ง๐™ค๐™ข ๐™š๐™ญ๐™ฅ๐™š๐™ง๐™ž๐™š๐™ฃ๐™˜๐™š ๐™„ ๐™˜๐™–๐™ฃ ๐™ฉ๐™–๐™ก๐™  ๐™–๐™—๐™ค๐™ช๐™ฉ ๐™ฉ๐™๐™ž๐™จ ๐™š๐™ญ๐™ฉ๐™š๐™ฃ๐™จ๐™ž๐™ซ๐™š๐™ก๐™ฎ)

๐˜ฟ๐™ค๐™ฃ’๐™ฉ ๐™œ๐™š๐™ฉ ๐™ช๐™จ๐™š๐™™ ๐™ฉ๐™ค ๐™™๐™ค๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™œ ๐™ฌ๐™๐™–๐™ฉ ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช ๐™™๐™ค๐™ฃ’๐™ฉ ๐™ก๐™ค๐™ซ๐™š ๐™š๐™–๐™˜๐™ ๐™™๐™–๐™ฎ (๐™ฉ๐™๐™ž๐™จ ๐™ช๐™ฃ๐™๐™–๐™ฅ๐™ฅ๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™š๐™จ๐™จ ๐™™๐™–๐™ข๐™–๐™œ๐™š๐™จ ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช๐™ง ๐™ฅ๐™๐™ฎ๐™จ๐™ž๐™˜๐™–๐™ก ๐™—๐™ค๐™™๐™ฎ)

Instead

๐™ˆ๐™–๐™ ๐™š ๐™– ๐™™๐™š๐™˜๐™ž๐™จ๐™ž๐™ค๐™ฃ ๐™ฉ๐™ค ๐™˜๐™๐™–๐™ฃ๐™œ๐™š…

๐˜ฝ๐™š ๐™ฌ๐™ž๐™ก๐™ก๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™œ ๐™–๐™ฃ๐™™ ๐™ค๐™ฅ๐™š๐™ฃ ๐™ฉ๐™ค ๐™™๐™ค ๐™ž๐™ฉ…

๐™‚๐™š๐™ฉ ๐™œ๐™ช๐™ž๐™™๐™–๐™ฃ๐™˜๐™š ๐™ฌ๐™๐™š๐™ง๐™š ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช ๐™–๐™ง๐™š ๐™จ๐™ฉ๐™ช๐™˜๐™ …

๐™๐™–๐™ ๐™š ๐™จ๐™ฉ๐™š๐™ฅ๐™จ ๐™š๐™–๐™˜๐™ ๐™™๐™–๐™ฎ ๐™ง๐™š๐™ก๐™š๐™ฃ๐™ฉ๐™ก๐™š๐™จ๐™จ ๐™ฉ๐™ค ๐™œ๐™š๐™ฉ๐™ฉ๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™œ ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช๐™ง ๐™œ๐™ค๐™–๐™ก๐™จ…

๐˜ฝ๐™š๐™˜๐™–๐™ช๐™จ๐™š ๐™ž๐™› ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช ๐™™๐™ค, ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช ๐™’๐™„๐™‡๐™‡ ๐™œ๐™š๐™ฉ ๐™ฉ๐™๐™š ๐™ง๐™š๐™จ๐™ช๐™ก๐™ฉ๐™จ ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช ๐™ฌ๐™–๐™ฃ๐™ฉ….

Not in a million years I would have thought I would be at the best shape in my life after cancer treatment

Not in a million years I thought I would have my own business helping people to change their lives….

It all started with a decision…

A decision to live a life that I wanted….

On my terms…

And a decision to doing the work every day….

Everything that was required to get there and beyond…

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