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๐—ฌ๐—ข๐—จ ๐—–๐—”๐—กโ€™๐—ง ๐—ข๐—จ๐—ง๐—ฆ๐—ข๐—จ๐—ฅ๐—–๐—˜ ๐—ฃ๐—›๐—ฌ๐—ฆ๐—œ๐—–๐—”๐—Ÿ ๐—ข๐—ฅ ๐—˜๐— ๐—ข๐—ง๐—œ๐—ข๐—ก๐—”๐—Ÿ ๐—›๐—˜๐—”๐—Ÿ๐—œ๐—ก๐—š

Donโ€™t want to hear that huh?

๐™ƒ๐™š๐™–๐™ก๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™œ ๐™ž๐™จ ๐™™๐™ค๐™ฃ๐™š ๐™—๐™ฎ ๐™”๐™Š๐™๐™Š๐™‰๐™‡๐™”โ€ฆ

There are definitely complementary things you can do to support healthโ€ฆ

But expecting people to do the work for you is only an ILLUSIONโ€ฆ

You might think it is a โ€œrich statementโ€ coming from someone who has had 12 sessions of chemo right?

Well the 12 sessions of chemo did its own job indeed and I am grateful for thatโ€ฆ

๐˜ฝ๐™ช๐™ฉ ๐™ž๐™› ๐™„ ๐™๐™–๐™™ ๐™Ÿ๐™ช๐™จ๐™ฉ ๐™™๐™ค๐™ฃ๐™š ๐™ฉ๐™๐™–๐™ฉ ๐™ฌ๐™๐™š๐™ง๐™š ๐™ฌ๐™ค๐™ช๐™ก๐™™ ๐™„ ๐™—๐™š ๐™ฃ๐™ค๐™ฌ??

๐˜ฟ๐™š๐™›๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™ž๐™ฉ๐™š๐™ก๐™ฎ ๐™ฃ๐™ค๐™ฉ ๐™–๐™ฉ ๐™ฉ๐™๐™š ๐™—๐™š๐™จ๐™ฉ ๐™จ๐™๐™–๐™ฅ๐™š ๐™ค๐™› ๐™ข๐™ฎ ๐™ก๐™ž๐™›๐™šโ€ฆ

๐™‹๐™๐™ฎ๐™จ๐™ž๐™˜๐™–๐™ก๐™ก๐™ฎ ๐™ค๐™ง ๐™š๐™ข๐™ค๐™ฉ๐™ž๐™ค๐™ฃ๐™–๐™ก๐™ก๐™ฎโ€ฆ

The work I did during 7.5 months day in day out couldnโ€™t have been outsourcedโ€ฆ

Spending 7.5 months by myself in self quarantine allowed myself to do internal work I needed to do.

These days I believe in all possibilities because I saw what my body went through and what it was capable forโ€ฆ

I felt how emotionally numb and lost I was and how I was able to change my internal world…

People ask me all the time:

๐™’๐™๐™–๐™ฉ ๐™ฌ๐™–๐™จ ๐™ฉ๐™๐™š ๐™ค๐™ฃ๐™š ๐™ฉ๐™๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™œ ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช ๐™™๐™ž๐™™?

Answer: there wasnโ€™t one thing. There were many things and the relentless determined action I took every single day.

๐™ƒ๐™ค๐™ฌ ๐™™๐™ž๐™™ ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช ๐™™๐™ค ๐™ž๐™ฉ?

I stopped searching for outside answers and spent time getting to know who I was.

I started owing and showing up to who I was.

No more hidingโ€ฆ

No more liesโ€ฆ

๐—›๐—ผ๐˜„ ๐—ฑ๐—ถ๐—ฑ ๐˜†๐—ผ๐˜‚ ๐—ฏ๐˜‚๐—ถ๐—น๐—ฑ ๐˜†๐—ผ๐˜‚๐—ฟ ๐—ฐ๐—ฒ๐—ฟ๐˜๐—ฎ๐—ถ๐—ป๐˜๐˜† ๐—ฎ๐—ป๐—ฑ ๐—น๐—ฒ๐˜ ๐—ด๐—ผ ๐—ผ๐—ณ ๐˜๐—ต๐—ฒ ๐—ณ๐—ฒ๐—ฎ๐—ฟ ๐—ถ๐—ป ๐˜€๐˜‚๐—ฐ๐—ต ๐—ฎ ๐—ฐ๐—ฟ๐—ถ๐˜€๐—ถ๐˜€?

I build my certainty each day I was prepared to take action towards creating a new body, mind and soul.

I had plenty of excuses to not do it but I dragged myself to do it when I was sick and scared for my life at the beginning.

๐™๐™๐™š ๐™ข๐™ค๐™ง๐™š ๐™„ ๐™จ๐™๐™ค๐™ฌ๐™š๐™™ ๐™ช๐™ฅ ๐™ฉ๐™ค ๐™ข๐™ฎ๐™จ๐™š๐™ก๐™›โ€ฆ

๐™๐™๐™š ๐™ข๐™ค๐™ง๐™š ๐™ง๐™š๐™จ๐™ช๐™ก๐™ฉ๐™จ ๐™„ ๐™œ๐™ค๐™ฉโ€ฆ

๐™๐™๐™š ๐™ข๐™ค๐™ง๐™š ๐™ง๐™š๐™จ๐™ช๐™ก๐™ฉ๐™จ ๐™„ ๐™œ๐™ค๐™ฉ, ๐™ฉ๐™๐™š ๐™—๐™š๐™ฉ๐™ฉ๐™š๐™ง ๐™„ ๐™›๐™š๐™ก๐™ฉโ€ฆ

๐™๐™๐™š ๐™ข๐™ค๐™ง๐™š ๐™˜๐™š๐™ง๐™ฉ๐™–๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™ฉ๐™ฎ ๐™„ ๐™—๐™ช๐™ž๐™ก๐™™โ€ฆ

๐™๐™๐™š ๐™ก๐™š๐™จ๐™จ ๐™ฉ๐™ž๐™ข๐™š ๐™„ ๐™ก๐™ž๐™ซ๐™š๐™™ ๐™ž๐™ฃ ๐™›๐™š๐™–๐™งโ€ฆ

๐™„๐™ฉ ๐™ž๐™จ ๐™– ๐™ฅ๐™ง๐™–๐™˜๐™ฉ๐™ž๐™˜๐™š๐˜ผ ๐™™๐™–๐™ž๐™ก๐™ฎ ๐™ฅ๐™ง๐™–๐™˜๐™ฉ๐™ž๐™˜๐™šโ€ฆ

If you are in a situation where you feel:

Lost and fearful

Unhappy and unfulfilled

Physically and emotionally uncomfortable

It doesn’t have to be about a diagnosis only…

๐—Ÿ๐—ถ๐—ณ๐—ฒ ๐—ฝ๐—ฟ๐—ฒ๐˜€๐—ฒ๐—ป๐˜๐˜€ ๐˜„๐—ถ๐˜๐—ต ๐˜€๐—ถ๐˜๐˜‚๐—ฎ๐˜๐—ถ๐—ผ๐—ป๐˜€ ๐—ฎ๐—น๐—น ๐˜๐—ต๐—ฒ ๐˜๐—ถ๐—บ๐—ฒ ๐˜๐—ต๐—ฎ๐˜ ๐—บ๐—ฎ๐—ธ๐—ฒ๐˜€ ๐˜‚๐˜€ ๐—ณ๐—ฒ๐—ฒ๐—น ๐—น๐—ผ๐˜€๐˜, ๐˜‚๐—ป๐—ต๐—ฎ๐—ฝ๐—ฝ๐˜†, ๐—ฝ๐—ต๐˜†๐˜€๐—ถ๐—ฐ๐—ฎ๐—น๐—น๐˜† ๐—ฎ๐—ป๐—ฑ ๐—ฒ๐—บ๐—ผ๐˜๐—ถ๐—ผ๐—ป๐—ฎ๐—น๐—น๐˜† ๐˜‚๐—ป๐—ฐ๐—ผ๐—บ๐—ณ๐—ผ๐—ฟ๐˜๐—ฎ๐—ฏ๐—น๐—ฒ…

๐—ช๐—ต๐—ฎ๐˜ ๐—บ๐—ฎ๐˜๐˜๐—ฒ๐—ฟ๐˜€ ๐—ถ๐˜€ ๐˜†๐—ผ๐˜‚๐—ฟ ๐—ฎ๐˜๐˜๐—ถ๐˜๐˜‚๐—ฑ๐—ฒ ๐˜๐—ผ๐˜„๐—ฎ๐—ฟ๐—ฑ๐˜€ ๐—ถ๐˜…

๐—›๐—ผ๐˜„ ๐˜†๐—ผ๐˜‚ ๐—ฟ๐—ฒ๐—ฎ๐—ฐ๐˜ ๐˜๐—ผ ๐—ถ๐˜…

๐—ง๐—ต๐—ฒ ๐—พ๐˜‚๐—ฒ๐˜€๐˜๐—ถ๐—ผ๐—ป๐˜€ ๐˜†๐—ผ๐˜‚ ๐—ป๐—ฒ๐—ฒ๐—ฑ ๐˜๐—ผ ๐—ฎ๐˜€๐—ธ ๐˜†๐—ผ๐˜‚๐—ฟ๐˜€๐—ฒ๐—น๐—ณ ๐—ถ๐˜€:๐—ช๐—ต๐—ฎ๐˜ ๐—ฎ๐—ฟ๐—ฒ ๐˜†๐—ผ๐˜‚ ๐—ฝ๐—ฟ๐—ฒ๐—ฝ๐—ฎ๐—ฟ๐—ฒ๐—ฑ ๐˜๐—ผ ๐—ฑ๐—ผ ๐˜๐—ผ ๐—ฐ๐—ต๐—ฎ๐—ป๐—ด๐—ฒ ๐˜†๐—ผ๐˜‚๐—ฟ ๐˜€๐—ถ๐˜๐˜‚๐—ฎ๐˜๐—ถ๐—ผ๐—ป?

๐— ๐˜† ๐—ฎ๐—ป๐˜€๐˜„๐—ฒ๐—ฟ ๐˜„๐—ฎ๐˜€ ๐—˜.๐—ฉ.๐—˜.๐—ฅ.๐—ฌ.๐—ง.๐—›.๐—œ.๐—ก.๐—š

๐—˜๐˜ƒ๐—ฒ๐—ฟ๐˜† ๐—ฑ๐—ฎ๐˜† ๐—ฑ๐—ฎ๐˜† ๐—ถ๐—ป ๐—ฑ๐—ฎ๐˜† ๐—ผ๐˜‚๐˜

๐—ช๐—ต๐—ฎ๐˜ ๐—ฎ๐—ฏ๐—ผ๐˜‚๐˜ ๐˜†๐—ผ๐˜‚?

๐™‹๐™Ž: ๐™„๐™› ๐™ฎ๐™ค๐™ช ๐™ฌ๐™–๐™ฃ๐™ฃ๐™– ๐™ฉ๐™ค ๐™—๐™š ๐™œ๐™ช๐™ž๐™™๐™š๐™™ ๐™—๐™ฎ ๐™จ๐™ค๐™ข๐™š๐™ค๐™ฃ๐™š ๐™ฌ๐™๐™ค ๐™๐™–๐™จ ๐™ฉ๐™–๐™ ๐™š๐™ฃ ๐™›๐™ช๐™ก๐™ก ๐™ง๐™š๐™จ๐™ฅ๐™ค๐™ฃ๐™จ๐™ž๐™—๐™ž๐™ก๐™ž๐™ฉ๐™ฎ ๐™ค๐™› ๐™๐™š๐™ง ๐™ค๐™ฌ๐™ฃ ๐™๐™š๐™–๐™ก๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™œ

You know where I am ๐Ÿ™‚

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