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This is how I know I have changed…

I have recently changed email providers and in the process I was faced with a “nightmare” situation due my technical inability or stupidity if you wanna call it…

Yes tech is not my forte…

To cut this story short, I made a typo mistake when creating my profile in the new provider’s website which resulted in a 3 weeks “journey” to solve the issue…

Have you noticed I am calling it a “journey” – not a “battle”?

The old version of myself would have gone “bananas” to say it politely…I would have been enraged…

I would have spent so much energy in being angry that by the time these 3 weeks had finished, I would have been cursing the people I spoke to and their future generations x 10…

The new me…trusted the process…gave each person I spoke to a chance to resolve my problem…

The new me…NEVER GOT ANGRY…I got a little frustrated instead…

The new me…believed that once I got everything working my audience would understand why I hadn’t been there…

The new me…told myself each day…you are doing your best each day to solve this…

The new me…stayed patient…

Three weeks later my problem was solved…nobody died…I didn’t spend any more energy than I had to in this problem…

I spent so much of my life being angry…with a telecommunications company when my internet didn’t work…with the government when I couldn’t get my drive licence recognised…with a company when they didn’t give me a refund when I was entitled to…the list goes on…I always found a reason to be angry…

I have decided that being angry takes all my energy away…from my body, from my mind and from my soul.

I have decided that this is no longer a state I want to let myself be in.

But you are now asking yourself? It sounds simple…but it is not that simple…

I know it is not…trust me…

But we all need to start somewhere…and for me it was by recognizing that my inner home was mostly angry…and I wanted to come back home to a peaceful home, not an angry home anymore.

I have always looked for peace outside my inner self and little I knew that I needed to find inner peace inside me.

We all have an “inner” home…a home we live in mostly…a default state we all go back into…

It is up to us to recognize it and maybe do something about it…

So today I want you to ask yourself…what is your inner home?

What is the default state you mostly get yourself into?

Which is your dominant emotion? The one you mostly live in….

Is it anger, sadness, anxiety, frustration?

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