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Have you tried to forgive?

When I was told I had Stage 3 Bowel Cancer, I didn’t get angry…

I didn’t blame anyone or anything…

I found a calm place quietly within myself and I asked God:

Wow that is serious! What do you want to tell me?

The answer was simple: You need to forgive.

At that moment in time, it felt like an impossible mission.

So I put that thought to the side…

As I started taking one step at a time during chemotherapy, that thought would come back in different forms…

How do you want to live your life after this?

What are you going to do to stay well from the inside out?

How are you going to survive?

Although I was changing my diet, introducing exercise, meditating each day, reading every health book I could get my hands on…

I tried to avoid that though…

But that though would come back:

What about forgiveness?

I was so hurt that I could barely sit with my pain….

I was so hurt that I could barely open up my heart…

But slowly I started to doing the work…

I wanted to live so badly that I had to give everything a try….

As I reached out to God many times in my journey, as I meditated each day, as I sat with my painful feelings…

I could feel the forgiveness filling my soul slowly….

I could feel that weight lifting off my shoulders…

I could feel my energy changing….

I could feel my life unfolding in a way that it had never been able to…

because my energy was trapped before in the anger, in the resentment.

I let go of the fact that I couldn’t change the past…

And slowly I started to embrace the future at a whole different level.

If you feel that forgiveness is out of reach for you, give it a go…

Don’t loose faith in an act of love…

because sometimes just our willingness to forgive is all we need.

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