After a cancer diagnosis, it is hard not to cry…if you are a strong person you might not cry straight after you get told you have cancer but when the reality sinks in….the tears are going to come.
When I was told I had cancer, it was after my bowel surgery so I was groggy…coming to terms of being alive after an emergency surgery…feeling lost without my kids so I don’t remember crying as such.
What I do remember is a particular day…a few days after I went home from hospital after my surgery. My husband took the kids out to the beach and I stayed at home by myself…recovering.
I spent the whole day crying…sobbing if I remember well. I cried for my diagnosis, for the sadness of getting so disconnected to my body that I didn’t see cancer coming, creeping up on me. I cried for what I had yet to face….I cried for everything I had been holding on to that didn’t serve my body and mind.
This particular day was the day I decided I was ready to face what was in front of me. I was able to gather all my strength together so I could be strong for me, for my kids, for my husband, for everyone who loved me.
So crying is ok…I am not sure when our society has become a non-crying one, when our society has seen crying as a weakness. Crying is needed so we can express our feelings, so we can release our emotions.
So if today you need to have a cry, I would say go for it. Don’t hold back…this is part of being human.